Support & help needed

Hi my name is Debbie Tait

I am 57 years old, 12 weeks ago I was in a lot of pain but just thought it was my normal fibromyalgia pain, and my normal pain I get in my knee and my spine with migraines etc. I was in a very very abusive domestic violence relationship years ago which I escaped with my two babies but unfortunately now all the damage that was done over the 11 years of those beatings is coming Back to haunt me so he fractured my back when I was with him but would never let me go to the doctor so I crawled around till I could bear the pain of standing, was knocked out numerous times strangled to unconsciousness , & the numerous broken bones, broken noses etc, over 11 years but because he kicked me in the back with his steel cap boots on and also stomped on my head a lot or threw me through our glass door & too many things to mention….Now I am suffering the after effects of it Which has also given me the worst PTSD that I’ve been diagnosed with over the years. When I do try to get help from the emergency department at the public hospitals,(I’ve had 10 ED admissions since December), the last one was two days ago I got out of hospital yesterday. They always query. I’m having a stroke but they said to me because I’ve got so much wrong with my spine and I need to go through neurology surgeons , plus spinal surgery that Campbelltown has come to the end of the road with me and can’t help me any more. I need to go to Westmead hospital., Which I did last week and sat in the emergency there for 17 hours in my wheelchair they gave me no blood test no cannula no saline drip so that I wouldn’t dehydrate, I had numerous tests but on the wrong part of my body, as they did my knee which I also need surgery on & my lower back….. so after 17 hours I had to go home to lie down in my own bed. I’m really scared that if I don’t get some help, I’m gonna go to sleep and not wake up one day. The pain is excruciating, I’ve never been in so much pain in my whole life and I just really need some help. I’ve had to spend so much on wheelchairs and medicines that aren’t covered by PBS And I live upstairs on the second floor so I’m trying to get up there & down so I have to get my family, friends or neighbours to help carry me & my wheelchair up & down too. . It’s very hard. The last breakdown I ever had was six years ago so it would be really good if the Hospital ‍⚕️‍⚕️ could say wow six years ago you’re doing amazing, but because I can’t talk about a lot of the other trauma I’ve been through in my life, they think I’m depressed (which I definitely am, but I’m trying to fight to stay alive). There are some amazing doctors and nurses that I’ve seen and spoken to and even some of them have been crying because they want me to have surgery but when they go up to someone above them they get taken away and I never see that doctor again and I had a nurse at one of the hospitals. I won’t mention which one tell me people are dying But they’ve been threatened that they will lose their jobs if they continue to kick up a stink about anything so told me to go to the ombudsman the Prime Minister for help, which I will eventually do but at the moment I’m just too unwell to try and make phone calls emails and everything so my family and friends & Drs suggested maybe a go fund me page, would help me to pay for everything ‘ hopefully I’ll get better as I’m so scared & this pain every day is so painful. I’m a person who is always there for others & have never asked for help it’s really hard for me to do. I’m just praying that something will happen soon, I just want to get better. We have my grandaughters murder trial coming up and we waited 15 long years to get justice for her. She was only 21 months old when she was killed, so I need to be at the court case as well but I need to be able to get through it & give my evidence & not be in so much agony & pain to be able to be there And I’m just hoping and praying that I can get some help before then just to get me through to the trial in the four weeks we have to be there as he’s pleading not guilty there might be a bit of help. Just to try get through enough to pay these things as I’ve had to stop paying my rent so I’m ringing the people tomorrow just to let them know can I pay a little bit off each fortnight? Very hard on a benefit trying to buy all these things I had to buy a walker then another wheelchair that ended up not being any good and then I ordered a wheelchair from chemist warehouse which was $289 But I’m hoping to get an electric wheelchair so my family doesn’t have to be burdened by having to push me everywhere and when I need to go to the toilet or make a cup of tea or I have to go to doctors appointments and then we have to park ages away and they’re pushing me up hills and downhills and corridors I don’t want to ever be a burden to my family. I love them so much But just need a bit of help while I wait for NDIS to help. My psychologist has written a letter for me to take to any hospital in the country, telling them I’ve never ever been diagnosed as having a mental illness. I have PTSD from major trauma that’s happened in my life, I won’t go into the major trauma because I can’t even speak about those things but would just like to give you a little bit of background on my life and where I’m at now. Thank you for listening.. I went to my old Doctor Who told me when I asked him to do more x-rays of my spine because I was having really bad back pain, that because he didn’t diagnose me with any of my illnesses my back would always be stuffed he would not prescribe anything New for me because he did not diagnose me with fibromyalgia or the back pain or my migraines, etc. So I left the office that day feeling very defeated decided I needed to try a new doctor because I knew there was something wrong with my health. so after finding a great GP he did all the tests on me to find out I had multiple things wrong with me and some are life-threatening. So I’ve gone to all the hospitals all the specialist all the doctors appointment all the osteopath appointments & all the other ones, I haven’t yet had biopsies on my thyroid liver and adrenal gland but the most important thing I found out was my back and neck my whole spine has bulging discs from the top of my neck downto the tailbone Just the whole way down and every single place and also my cervical spine has dislodged and flipped over to cause some spinal cord injuries. I need to have urgent surgeries, I have spent 10 times between Camden Hospita, Campbelltown Hospital, Liverpool Hospital, and Westmead Hospital. My doctor has put urgent on all my paperwork and has asked them to admit me under the neuro surgical team and the spinal specialist. My last Hope after spending hours and hours sitting in my wheelchair because now I can’t walk, I’m paralysed down my left side. I’m in agony most of the time but I’m on morphine painkillers and a whole lot of other painkillers but a lot of them aren’t covered by Medicare PBS so I’ve spent a lot of money on them and trying to buy wheelchairs and walkers and everything so far I’ve spent 2 1/2 thousand dollars which I don’t have because I’m on a disability pension at the moment for that. I just need a little bit of help while I am waiting for NDIS to put through the application, they have put it through as urgent priority but it still can take up to 6 months, I also need to see a private specialist now to see if I can go to the private hospital to have this operation done as Westmead has made me an appointment at the spinal clinic for July. Liverpool Hospital has made me an appointment with the neurosurgical team in one months time and my neurologist at Campbelltown Hospital . I haven’t heard back from her yet but the doctor still trying to get hold of her urgently to do these nerve tests on me before I have to have other things done, It’s very scary. I’m really scared this time. I don’t think I’m gonna make it, I also have my granddaughter‘s murder trial coming up so I’m going to go to that no matter what and I’m hoping that I can stay alive and get some medical treatment before that because the trial is gonna be over four weeks. I need to be there because I need to be my granddaughter’s voice along with my Daughter so that we can finally get some justice for our precious girl. We’ve waited, 15 long heart wrenching, heartbreaking years for the court case, we have had 18 adjournments through this so just trying to hang on long enough to get to the trial and I just need a little bit of help. If anybody can even spare two dollars anything will help me right now my family is trying to help & my friends, but I don’t want to be a burden to everyone. Westmead Hospital the other night was my final emergency room that I went to for help but they made me wait 17 hours in my wheelchair. Liverpool hospital emergency for hours in my wheelchair and Campbelltown. I was there for 12 hours. So from the 10 times been taken by ambulance to the hospitals I feel like I’m giving up my fight. I told my kids don’t worry about calling an ambulance cause I’m not going to emergency any more cause I just cannot sit for all that time waiting all they want to do is give me injection after injection after injection of pain medicine and I don’t want that. I want to get better so that I can get out of this wheelchair and survive long enough to go to my granddaughter‘s court case. Thank you so much to anybody that would like to donate. I’m going to try and sell my car too if I can to pay for some of this, but even a little bit would just help me get through at the moment thank you and God bless.