Hi I'm Lorraine, I've always worked hard and been the one helping others, so to actually be in a position where I can't feels absolutely horrible I've had a run of bad luck after an abrupt end the a 14 year relationship,which at times was abusive and has left me with both physical and mental health issues, I was working part time when my ex got removed from our property last November, it was the biggest shock to my system as he was not allowed to the house or to see our kids, which they found extremely hard and I broke bail conditions so that they could see there dad on there birthdays, whatever happened between us was never Infront of the kids, and they always got fun dad so it was devastating for them consequently my mental health deteriorated then my fibromyalgia got out of control and I literally spent the next 9 months trying to just get through each day, my son refused to go to school, then my daughter and it has been a constant battle trying to get them both in everyday, both too young for medication for depression, referral for help will be years so I had to quit my job, my daughter started to just go off with her friends, with no way of keeping in contact, and got hurt as a result while I was at work, so you can imagine the guilt I have if I'm being honest every week since he left something else has broken or gone wrong, my washing machine has completely broken and yes I've asked charities etc and can't access anything, my oven broken yesterday completely after months of bits going wrong or breaking off the kids need carpet new bedding and curtains, I need carpet for the stairs and lounge too, paint for the whole house, I am using the lounge as my bedroom aswell but desperately need to clear anything not needed or broken as we're overcrowded and it's making things 100x worse if I could buy a really cheap van not only could I clear all the rubbish and unwanted items, I could also collect washing machine and oven myself and also start doing gardening again, which is where my heart and passion lies, I could do the hours that fit around the kids and my pain and medical conditions and disabilities and actually start to get my life back on track and give my kids the future they deserve, I really will appreciate any help anyone can give, I just need a bit of a hand then I can pay it back and pay it forward, helping others, and giving the same love and care out to as many people as I can, the animals need there jabs and boosters too, it's just relentless and hard to see the end of the tunnel at times, but I'm really struggling and can't get out of this hole I'm in without some help, my parents are dead and I have no one else, tried everything and this is my last resort, I hope it's ok to ask ?