On Monday,  November 11,  I am – in my life.  On the Thursday before, as on Thursdays for several months, I was with my granddaughter, loving her, tending my daughter-in-love.  Later that night driving myself home. I marveled at my life, grateful to have lived long enough to be with my granddaughter, with my adult sons in an adult ways, and with my community, contributing through rhythm, art, healing, song, innocence, wisdom, and wildness, with all my relations.

Then,  BAM--My belly began swell, and I felt weak, breathing was hard – and foolishly I kept going.   In a few days, I could not eat or drink and was in pain.  On Monday, Nov. 18, in unbearable pain and looking 9 months pregnant, I took a wild ride to the ER . There, doctors drained 4.8 liters of fluid from my abdomen and told me that I likely had ovarian cancer, probably stage IV. On that Thursday, instead of hanging out with my granddaughter, doctors confirmed that diagnosis.

My life has shifted 190 degrees. I am fast tracking with western medicine to save my life and wholistic medicine , flow, energy plants, and animals, rocks, rivers and trees, to provide the best chances for living the full catastrophe if that is in my cards.   I just a moment ago had cells stuck in a time warp.  I was not allowing something, hanging on and this was stopping flow.  I think this is true for the planet and many of us in these times. 

I am not able to work right now and am not sure how long it will be before I am able to earn money again. So I am appealing to you for financial support.  I am not done with my life!  I have things to say, a planet to save,  a grandchild to love, guide and support, sons to watch grow and thrive and a community that depends on me.  And, after all. the world needs good grandmas and wise elders.

I am asking for 15,500 to help pay for living expenses,  wholistic healing costs, and to reimburse those who are supporting me as they give time and money to support my aliveness and recovery.

I am clear that this cancer is one manifestation of many that is asking for transformation if not transmutation,  not just me, but you, and all beings, especially our planet. This is the wisdom that we are being asked to bring to our cosmic dance at this point in time.  The ancestors are giving us much support to bring forth the good, the true, and the beautiful.  The future beings  are loudly cheering us on to heal each other and the planet, to bring our wisdom, heart, and courage forth .

With the song of deep sweet tears from the depths of me to the depths of you,

Love, Naomi