On Thursday January 9th my husband and I lost our sweet baby boy. I was almost full term and in the matter of 3 days I developed preeclampsia which developed into HELP which developed into DIC and I had organ failure. My body created toxins that detached the placenta and cut off oxygen to our son. I had to have an emergency C section because my organs were failing and my uterus was full of blood and they needed to get my son out so I wouldn’t die. I had to have multiple blood transfusions. When they cut into my uterus there was 4 liters of blood in there alone. I have never been so scared in my life. I had to say good bye to my husband and my mom, it seemed like everyone was already thinking I was for sure gonna die. One of the only people who seemed hopeful was my surgeon to who I am forever grateful. I some how made it through surgery and we have now stabilized my body, but the doctors have informed me that if we tried to have another baby they couldn’t promise my safety or the babies safety. I’d have to have a high risk doctor in the city and it would still be dangerous. My husband is too scared to let me try again, and I’m terrified of losing another baby. We are so grieved over the loss of our son and the only thing that gives us any hope at all is to possibly have another little boy. Everywhere we look we are reminded that we don’t have him, are sweet baby boy. Everything feels wrong and our family incomplete. We have a 2 year old daughter who was so excited to have a little brother and she’s been so strong through this. It’s truly amazing how empathetic she is and understanding of what happened, but our family still feels incomplete. Please help us raise money so we can get a surrogate and make our family whole again.