My Dad's Funeral

I don't know how to start this off. I don't know what to feel. I'm in shock. Life can stop in a blink of an eye. I now see that. My dad passed away. He had a horrible snowmobile accident. He told us he was going up north for the weeknd. He told me he was coming back on sunday. well. He never can come back. My dad was everything. He cared so much. He would ask me how my classes are and if I needed money for books. He always was there. He had such a goofy sense of style with his white dad shoes, and baggy shirts. He would always send me funny pictures of cats and polish memes. I'm going to miss that. I'm going to miss his obnoxious laugh, his dad jokes, and just his company in general. I feel like these things only happen in movies. Well. They don't. Life is going to change so drastically for my whole family. We live in america, and we don't have any family here. Eveyone is in poland. It's just me, my brother and my mom now. My dad was always so cheerful and always found the upside to things. The worst part is I never got to say bye. He left early in the morning. I am 19 years old, and I started by second year and second semster. I don't know how i'm going to get through, but I have to because I have to make him proud. I have to. That's the very least I can do. My brother is 13. What pains me the most is that my dad will never get to see my brother graduate from highschool. It's not fair.  I wish I could of saved him, I wish I could have done something. But it's too late.  I can't belive we have to make a funeral. For my dad. MY DAD.  I don't even know how we are going to pay for it. My dad was a good man. Full of wisdom, new ideas, and the ability to turn any situation around. He was only 43. I have no words left. All I have is a deep, aching hole in my heart. I hope my dad is okay where he is. I hope he knows that we loved him so so much.  We Love you tata. Please rest easy. Paypal: paypal.me/MagdalenaPeczek