My Sweet Jesse Beener (Jesse Navarra)

Hey, I am Bonnie Damon, Jesse's mom. I would like to start by letting anyone who didn't know, that Jesse had a massive heart attack(actually 2), while he was on a train headed to Washington DC. I can hardly make myself utter these words, but, despite their efforts & working on him for

1 & 1/2 hours, he passed away, as a result! I want to say, to anyone that knew, cared about & loved him, I am so very sorry for your loss, & I understand what you are feeling!

I truly wish I was not having to write this to put out there. I have attempted to write this several times, but, I just couldn't find the words, & it has been emotionally draining! There are no words in our world to say how much I love my son, & nothing I still won't do for him. So, I am putting my pride aside, & asking for help, so he can have the proper resting place he deserves. My family & I have been able to come up with a portion of the costs, but it is very expensive & I just can't do it by myself. I have exhausted all of my resources.

Jesse is still currently in Washington, DC, at the medical Examiner's office, awaiting the Funeral Home I have chosen, to pick him up. He will be cremated, & then his remains will be sent to another funeral home near me in Ga, to be put into several smaller urns for keepsakes, & the rest into a bigger urn. Only then will I feel like he can rest. And, only then, will I be able to start grieving, & rest.

If I can't come up with all of the funds, the state will claim him & he will be put with all the other people who could not be, or weren't claimed by their loved ones! The thought of that happening to my baby boy breaks my heart into a million pieces, & rips it out of my chest! It is unthinkable to me! Especially knowing how caring his spirit is! He truly has the biggest heart, & he loved his family & friends, unconditionally!

I know Jesse had some struggles through his life, but, it didn't change who he was as a human being, & he does not deserve to be done this way. No one deserves that, but, especially someone who has family, & true friends that care about him! I could go on & on about how wonderful his spirit is, & how much he cherished his friendships, but, I know anyone that knows him, knows that!

I have struggled every second, every minute of everyday to lift my head off of my pillow & face this life without him! He has been my whole world from the moment I gave birth to him. I could not, & would not ever give up or lose hope for him during is short time on this earth, & I can't, & won't give up on him in his death!

Any help is so truly appreciated, you have no idea! I just can't express that enough!

Jesse struggled with mental illness & paralyzing anxiety most of his life. Which eventually showed itself, with him having very high blood pressure for the last several years.

He has been clean the past few months, & was very proud of that. He was also back under a Doctors care for his heart, & trying to change his path in life. But, without something to numb his anxiety, it was exacerbated. He was really struggling with it the past few weeks, to the point of not thinking he could live like that anymore! I couldn't imagine having to go through life feeling that way! It's so sad!

The only solace that helps me wrap my head around this, & be able to somewhat function, & maybe it will help y'all too, is knowing that he doesn't have to suffer with that daily battle anymore, & that he will finally be able to be at Peace, & truly be happy!

I want to thank anyone from the deepest, most sincere part of my soul, that can help me give Jesse what he deserves, so he can let go & be able to watch over us! Thank You so, so, much

Jesse's Mom