My husband died and left behind me and our kids

My husband committed suicide after being wrongfully terminated from Zeus. He left behind me and our 2 small children ages 4 and 7. We were 2 months behind on our house note, still owe on his car as mine is old and has an oil leak, and I have no money to have him cremated. We have no money for food, gas, bills or anything. We are on our own as family lives hundreds of miles away. Me and the kids will need lots of therapy as he shot himself in the head in front of me and my 7 year old walked in as it happened. I never ask for help as I'm the person that always helps other ppl. We are in serious need. Anything you can give would be appreciated. I feel like it's a bad dream I cannot wake up from. He was my soulmate. The love of my life. I don't know why he did it because I loved him so much and I don't know how to do this alone. I'm disabled. I have tumors in my spine that cause severe pain and I cannot work. Anything anyone can give to help I will be forever grateful.