My family while we battle stage 4 breast cancer!!!

Hello,

As everyone may not know me, my name is marleana matthews...I'm a mom of 4 nalia (12) jeremih (11) noah (9) kayson my 3 soon to be (4)...im currently trying to Raise money for my family and I...on Nov 20th I went in for a ultrasound and mammogram on my left breast...I went in just thinking it was a cysts, because I had just been seen in March with a benign cysts that could be drained, nothing else...however I was told that these things can always come back, so when I started having pain in September, I really thought nothing of it...I actually thought it was menstrual related, so I waited a month...well in that month the pain went from being painful to touch to pain all the time...and then another month later I felt a lump...now mind you was convinced it was just the cysts that was back and needed to be drained...I made my appointment on Nov 20th, and my life changed that day...I was told that the tumor was very concerning and that they wanted to do tissue samples...talk about terrified, I was so scared!!! We had Thanksgiving coming and unless it was good news I didn't want to know until after Thanksgiving...well it was Nov 27th that I received a phone call right before taking my 3yr old to school!!! What I thought could be the worst day, little did I kno I was gonna have many more hard days ahead of me!!! I was told I had breast cancer, and that I needed to be seen by a surgeon!!! I had that appointment Dec 4, a day after my husband's birthday..and 3 day after my 9yr Olds bday!!! Birthdays were very hard to push through, on top of hearing from the surgeon on Dec 4...well she basically told my that day everything I didn't want to hear, I heard triple negative, and that I would have to do chemo first!!! This was the hardest pill to swallow because triple negative is very aggressive, n chemo wasn't something I wanted to do!!! At this point the only positive that came out of that day was that it was stage 2 until I did further testing...she asked what other places did I have I pain!!! At the time I had pain in my shoulder, shoulder blade, chest, breast, n ribs...so she recommended we do further testing on those areas!!! I had appointments everyday for almost the last 2 weeks...I missed so much work in between time!!! N some how in between I needed to find time to tell my kids!!! This was the 2nd worst day of my life...anyone who knows me knows that the love I have for my babies is beyond any type of love...I want the best for them n this wasn't something I wanted them to have to be apart of...I'm only 33 and have my whole life to live, I don't want my kids to forever look at me like I'm sick...well finally the day came that I seen my oncologist, and this day by far was the worst day of my life...I found out that not only did I have breast cancer, but that it has spread to my bones in all the areas where I was having pain!!! Which then moves this all to stage 4, n i will b getting some type of treatment for the rest of my life...At that point it was fml forreal...I felt like wat was the purpose...y me??? I asked the question how long did the doctor think I would have if I didn't do any of the treatments, hearing him say 6-12months, was a complete wake up call for me...it is pushing me to do this for my family but mainly my kids...they deserve to have me around...I know what it's like to lose a parent at a young age, and to kno that I can get the help I need to prolonged my life for them, I'm gonna do watever it takes...i jus had my first treatment today...n my 3yr olds bday is Saturday...im hoping to do somethingfor him as long as im ok to.... so with this all being said i'm asking for really anything, anything helps!!! We are usually a very busy on the go family and even through me gettin chemo which I started today, I want to keep that Goin!!! It keeps are minds busy and it's time spent...I don't want my kids seeing me sick, so I'd love for people in my support system to b able to take them out the house if need be!!! I'm also asking for help with bills, as I don't know how much work I will be missing out on but I do kno I will need help!!! Also im gonna need to get a wig collection Goin, jus in case!!! I haven't lossed hair yet, n I'm also not claiming it!!! But to b on the safe side is always better...i hear this type of cancer is a beast!!! So please I ask that if you have it to help my family out in these difficult times we would so appreciate anything!!! I truly believe that God is testing me, one of his toughest soldiers, to get through this and come out on the other side, and have a testimony for everyone, including the non believers!!! Thank yall for everything, I mean everything, even the thoughts and prayers!!! Love yall and stayed blessed!!!!

Update 6months later: so I recently had rescans n found out that the chemo isn't working...it has spread to my liver, n lungs as well as a blood clot in my lungs...I also had a head mri bcuz of all this pain that I've been having in my head, come to find out there is something there as well between my head n skull!!! At this point will I ever b happy, pain-free, stress free ect...I've missed so much work n I'm still waiting to hear back on ssi!!! Thank u all for ur support n kind words as well as much needed prayers!!!