My dad took his life last night

Last night I lost my dad to suicide he texted me before he took his life and said this "I will always love you and will be looking down at you" I called him he answered he was crying I asked him what was wrong and he said everything he wouldn't tell me exactly what was wrong he has 4 kids 20, 17, 12, 4  he will be forever loved and missed made this to help for Christmas for his kids and for the cremation