I am a very private person. And will continue to keep my situation as private as possible. Over the course of the past month, I have endured the most painful situation in which I will ever have to go through. On top that, doing it alone. Tonight in just as little as an hour, I take my other half off life support. I fought the hardest I could to save her. Most think that suicide is the most selfish way to go. Please understand that when you’ve experienced physical abuse, sexual abuse, abandonment, emotional abuse, and neglect as a child, it’s a fight every single day to wake up out of bed and face the day. Facing what happened to you EVERY SINGLE DAY. With this tragedy, I have had expenses that were very unexpected and still can not pay for. To give the most honorable burial, I have by Wednesday to come up with funds in order to do so. Everyone tells me to cremate her. That it will be covered by the state. But that is something I physically can not get myself to do. Someone who has endured such a horrible life deserves to go in peace in the most respectful way. I don’t ever ask for help. In fact, I’m always asking for help to help others in need. This time.. it’s myself in need. I please ask to help in anyway that you can. Even $5.00 goes a long way. It’s hard for me to ask for help. As I have never asked for help my entire life. This is something in which I am doing alone and it’s the hardest thing to go through. Especially, financially. Although it seems like a large amount I’m asking for, that doesn’t come close to how much I will be having to pay at the end of all this. Thank you for taking the time to read and if you can help in any way, it would mean more to me than you will ever know.