Hi, my name is Jessica Lillian. I'm 35 years old and have been in a mentally, emotionally, and physically abusive relationship for 8-9 years. I am finally ready to leave. I now have two daughters involved, seeing and hearing everything that happens on a daily basis, and I don't want them to grow up having as much trauma from this relationship as I do.

The only problem is he is a narcissist and an abuser, so he won't let me leave peacefully without going to war over my girls (court). Also, he has made sure I don't have anyone to call or run to. I don't have any money to leave. I have started a TikTok page showing videos of what I go through, thinking I could make money off the app, but I have yet to make one shop sale and have yet to reach 10k followers to be accepted in the Creator Rewards Program. At the rate I'm going, it'll take me another few months to get there. Now, DV shelters around me are full; there is a waiting list.

Quite a few people have told me just to go ahead and make a GoFundMe, so that's what I'm doing. The math on this is if I can get 10,000 people to send me $5, that would be $50,000. That's way more than my goal, and I can't even imagine that happening, but it would be enough to buy an RV, used or maybe new. I'm not sure what the prices are on these yet, and I've seen them for a few thousand on Facebook Marketplace used. I would be able to get a lawyer to fight him in court and talk to my old boss at 7-Eleven. He said he's waiting on me to call him and tell him I want my job back. So all I need is the money for a place and a lawyer.

I have so much trauma I have to deal with from being with this man, and I don't want tomorrow to be me and my daughters on a post about our deaths. I saw a few of those this weekend, so here I am.