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This is pure torture for me. I do not ask for help. It goes against everything I stand for, everything I was ever taught. But I was also taught that there is no shame in need, and that there are blessings for giving. I am swallowing what pride I have left and asking for help.
As most of you know, Juergen and I have had many setbacks over the years. He lost his 37 year job the year we got married, and we have struggled ever since. But I was able to work when he wasn't, and when he was, my added income helped keep our heads above water. But then I got sick, and have been unable to work for over a year. My vision prevented me from doing nails anymore, and my IBD progressed to the point that I was only leaving the house when absolutely necessary. That was pretty difficult to do as the primary caregiver and transportation for my mom and for my mother in law. Juergen has always done his part, and more, but he isn't always available due to work. After mom died in 2017 things eased up a bit but then my health deteriorated rapidly and to a life threatening point. I was in pain like I've never experienced before and pray to God I never do again. My IBD was diagnosed first as Crohn's Disease, and I was about to start Remicade treatments, which are similar to chemo treatments. But before that happened, another colonoscopy showed that I needed emergency surgery to repair my colon. Once the surgeon opened me up, they realized I did not have Crohn's, but instead I had severe diverticulitis, along with a badly infected abcess and MRSA. They removed 11 inches of colon and did a colostomy. The colostomy was thankfully temporary, and was removed 2 months later. I began slowly healing, but I developed complications from the surgery, including recurring bladder issues, and most importantly, an incisional hernia. The hernia is pretty large, about 4 inches across. I wear a support brace to hold it, but I am extremely uncomfortable. The bladder issues have me in pain and incontinent alot of the time. I am once again staying in the house unless I have to go out. When I do, I put on my makeup, and my wig, and I act like everything is fine. In the meantime, I can't work, and Juergen is making just over minimum wage at his job. He goes on Medicare in June and I will be dropped from his employer provided insurance. I am trying to get my medical issues taken care of before that happens. I have 3 upcoming procedures. First, on the 27th of this month, I am having an outpatient procedure on my bladder to hopefully correct the issues I am having. On the 2nd of April, I am having cataract surgery. On the 10th of April, I am having hernia surgery, and will be laid up for at least a month afterwards. Juergens insurance covers the hernia surgery and the bladder procedure, but only part of the cataract procedure, and there will be copays for all of the procedures which we frankly do not have. As of today, because of trying to keep up with bills and groceries, we are $500 overdrawn. We need gas and groceries and have borrowed from Juergens mother and my family to the point where we can longer bring ourselves to ask. Our immediate need is $1000.. $500 to correct our overdraft, and $500 for bills, gas, and groceries. This does not address the outstanding medical bills we already have, and the at least $3000 more my eye surgery will incur. We will cross that bridge when it starts collapsing.
So here I am, humbly asking anyone who can to help. I cannot promise we will ever be in a position to pay any of you back, but I CAN promise to pay it forward. I will always look for every opportunity to help someone else, as I always have. I just want to be healthy enough to contribute financially to my family again.
If any if you are able to give in any amount, all I can really do from here is thank you, from the bottom of both our hearts, and pray for extra blessings for all of you. Thank you for reading, for even considering, and for helping if you can.
As most of you know, Juergen and I have had many setbacks over the years. He lost his 37 year job the year we got married, and we have struggled ever since. But I was able to work when he wasn't, and when he was, my added income helped keep our heads above water. But then I got sick, and have been unable to work for over a year. My vision prevented me from doing nails anymore, and my IBD progressed to the point that I was only leaving the house when absolutely necessary. That was pretty difficult to do as the primary caregiver and transportation for my mom and for my mother in law. Juergen has always done his part, and more, but he isn't always available due to work. After mom died in 2017 things eased up a bit but then my health deteriorated rapidly and to a life threatening point. I was in pain like I've never experienced before and pray to God I never do again. My IBD was diagnosed first as Crohn's Disease, and I was about to start Remicade treatments, which are similar to chemo treatments. But before that happened, another colonoscopy showed that I needed emergency surgery to repair my colon. Once the surgeon opened me up, they realized I did not have Crohn's, but instead I had severe diverticulitis, along with a badly infected abcess and MRSA. They removed 11 inches of colon and did a colostomy. The colostomy was thankfully temporary, and was removed 2 months later. I began slowly healing, but I developed complications from the surgery, including recurring bladder issues, and most importantly, an incisional hernia. The hernia is pretty large, about 4 inches across. I wear a support brace to hold it, but I am extremely uncomfortable. The bladder issues have me in pain and incontinent alot of the time. I am once again staying in the house unless I have to go out. When I do, I put on my makeup, and my wig, and I act like everything is fine. In the meantime, I can't work, and Juergen is making just over minimum wage at his job. He goes on Medicare in June and I will be dropped from his employer provided insurance. I am trying to get my medical issues taken care of before that happens. I have 3 upcoming procedures. First, on the 27th of this month, I am having an outpatient procedure on my bladder to hopefully correct the issues I am having. On the 2nd of April, I am having cataract surgery. On the 10th of April, I am having hernia surgery, and will be laid up for at least a month afterwards. Juergens insurance covers the hernia surgery and the bladder procedure, but only part of the cataract procedure, and there will be copays for all of the procedures which we frankly do not have. As of today, because of trying to keep up with bills and groceries, we are $500 overdrawn. We need gas and groceries and have borrowed from Juergens mother and my family to the point where we can longer bring ourselves to ask. Our immediate need is $1000.. $500 to correct our overdraft, and $500 for bills, gas, and groceries. This does not address the outstanding medical bills we already have, and the at least $3000 more my eye surgery will incur. We will cross that bridge when it starts collapsing.
So here I am, humbly asking anyone who can to help. I cannot promise we will ever be in a position to pay any of you back, but I CAN promise to pay it forward. I will always look for every opportunity to help someone else, as I always have. I just want to be healthy enough to contribute financially to my family again.
If any if you are able to give in any amount, all I can really do from here is thank you, from the bottom of both our hearts, and pray for extra blessings for all of you. Thank you for reading, for even considering, and for helping if you can.
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