Moving out of an extremely abusive home.

Hello friends. 

I have been placed in a foster care home for almost a year now.
I was told it was a therapeutic home. One that could help me out with my emotional and physical problems.  It has not. It has greatly damaged me.

Here is a rundown of my time here:

I am constantly horribly screamed at. I have autism and PTSD,  and cannot handle screaming  Everyone yells at me here, ranging from my foster mom who's in her 60's to her grandkids. Everyone treats me like I'm lazy subhuman filth. They do not respect me and don't even let me apologize anymore. Especially my foster mom. She said she hates hearing me pathetically say I'm sorry.

I was supposed to be accepted into this house as a part of the family... But from day one, it was never like that. I remember once she said she'd not let me have surgery on my legs (I have a congenital birth defect) because I wasn't worth the time away from HER family...

My self-esteem and emotional responses here have degraded immensely. I find myself constantly in tears. And that isn't even a moment of relief. I'm yelled at for crying. My foster mom's favorite saying is "adults don't cry, Logan. Stop acting like a two-year-old!"

At the old house, (we've moved) I had a hole in my room. On the roof. Snow and rain could freely come in. She "fixed it" by taping it back up, just for it to fall down again.

She also does not respect my identity, both LGBT and my race. She constantly tells me I'll never be a boy and to quit pretending. She's even called me a "half breed" (I am mixed race.) I've also heard her say the N-word many times. 

This sort of behavior isn't ok. She is supposed to be a parental figure, not just to me, but to her grandchildren and past foster children.

Every day I fear I'll mess something up. I fear I'll get screamed and screamed and screamed at. 

I've had enough of that.

My DCS case manager is to move me out by June 5th. I have no money to help myself move. I was never allowed to get a job. I need money for boxes and furniture. As well as groceries for when I move out. 

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I've estimated the cost from looking things up over the past few days. Some things I'll need are totes and boxes, some furniture, groceries, and money for other expenses. 

Please, please help me get out of here. I fear that if I do not get to move out, I'll suffer even more at the hands of this horrific person. 

— EDIT — I’ve lowered my goal for these reasons: I was told I wouldn’t have to buy furniture at my new house, yay! Many of my expenses should be covered! I’ve also taken into account that I’ll potentially need money for transportation, and money for school books (I’m going to ivy tech.) Thank you again my friends.