Mount Snowdon, A Pilgrimage

This is a page to support my solo trip to climb Mount Snowdon. It's a journey to reclaim lost parts of myself that are frozen in fear. To heal and re-write my personal family history. It's a means to reintegrate those parts of myself I have abandoned a thousand times along the way and come home to my strength, my heart and my sovereignty.

I will share this journey as truthfully and honestly as I can.

I hope it will be an inspiration to others who feel the call...

My name is Emily, I'm an artist, a healer, somatic practioner and mother of my wonderful 4 year old daughter.

I'm from the UK, but relocated to Portugal 6 years ago.

The last 5 years have been an intense awakening journey, ignited by the losing of our home in a wildfire in 2018 and the birth of my daughter 10 months later. The culmination of these years has brought me to this (excruciating) point of accountability and responsibility on my path of Self reclamation.

I received a calling in meditation to go and climb Mount Snowdon as a means to symbolically and literally face my fears and confront all the demons I hold inside, and once and for all liberate myself from their burden. I have received these callings for a long time, but have let the fear that comes with them stop me.

What your money will support:

~Buying walking boots, a rucksack and camel bladder.

~Flights from Portugal to the UK.

~Train and travel costs.

~2 nights accommodation near the foot of the mountain.

~Food and extra costs.

Any extra money I receive I will pass forward to support a dear friend on her healing journey, so don't stop at the limit! Let's keep this light going

I am beyond grateful to have your support. And I pray the blessings will be abundantly returned.

All my love, Emily

For those who haven't yet read my Instagram post;

Mount Snowdon ~ A Pilgrim

There is a terrified little girl locked away in me somewhere.

She put herself there, I put her there. She's locked up in a small rectangular room built high with concrete bricks. There is a small window that doesn't open and a vent that let's a little air in. It once, a long time ago was a very good idea to put her there, to keep her safe. But now only serves to stifle my vitality, choke my creativity and rob me of my power. I've thought of many ways she could be rescued by others, by men, brothers, partners. I've abandoned myself there. But I know that it has to be me to do it. I am the only one who can liberate her. And although it would be tempting to hire a bulldozer and smash the walls down to set her free, I know the only way to disarm these deep protection mechanisms is to face the perpetrator; a fiction of my own psyche, and take back the key.

To physically, emotionally, psychologically and spirituality represent this, I am going to climb Mount Snowdon alone.

To walk the terrified child in me every step of the way, in love, in light and in joy. I will catch her every moment she goes to disassociate and call her back in.

I will notice every time she has frozen in fear and warm her up. I will notice when she's flying, fawning and fighting to stay safe, I will calm her, regulate her and let her know she is ok. I will bring her back to the huge expansive 'ok'ness' that is everything.

Opening myself to connection in all the moment's I go to close in fear.

I will bring her back to trust and walk her home to joy.

As part of this path, an equally contracting part, I am asking for support on this journey, for donations from those who feel called. Que the inner voices; 'how humiliating to be asking for money!' 'how shameful of you!'

'how long will it take for you to break these codependency chains and stand on your own two feet!?' 'Get off your arse and make your own money, you lazy, useless child!' 'you can't go on like this forever'.

But something inside know's it has to be this way. Even though the little girl is kicking and screaming inside saying No! Don't do it! Don't ask! Don't go!

I know I have to do it, if I'll ever fully liberate myself, if I'll ever let go...

And hopefully this'll open the path for many more to liberate themselves too.