Hello! You may know me as Sarah, or Captain, or Lady Norémon. This fundraiser is to try to raise money to pay for a motel room over Christmas. So that I can spend the holiday with comfort, peace, & relaxation. Rather than full of anxiety and miserable like previous years. I’ve kept going and surviving all my life, facing problems and going through. But this feels like I've hit my limit.
Firstly I need to request that this doesn't get shared to the people I live with or their family. I really, really need to request that for my safety.
My living situation is terrible. The people I live with are a house of mirrors with toxicity. But due to unemployment, and having three cats. I do not have the financial stability to move. This gets exponentially worse on holidays. Holidays are supposed to be enjoyable. About togetherness. But they treat it as some ideal that only works if they're aggressive and hateful to obtain it. That if someone has a horrible time then they somehow deserved to. Previous years have included a physical fight because the tree didn't have enough decorations on it, to ripping-up and burning cards I had saved to open on Christmas Day. I feel the utmost that I do not have the fortitude to stay at this residence over another Christmas. I've already been going to a community dinner for years, but this year even being in the house doesn't seem like a bearable option.
I have been planning staying elsewhere over Christmas since last year's and have booked accommodations well in advance to do so. I worked a short government job to fund it and everything seemed to be going on track. The job’s pay was supposed to cover the stay, as well as to pay up several bills I have. This went pear-shaped when the payment 2 weeks after became delayed for 8 weeks. Due to the delay that when it finally did arrive it got devoured by payment arrangements, and interest to cover just the bills. But I had the choice of losing my telephone which would be terrible for job searching, or to beg then cover it with my delayed pay. I hoped that I would have time to save up enough to cover the motel still anyway. I even sold a copy of “Death Stranding" on eBay knowing it would sell and give me most of what I still needed. It did sell, and then hours later the Buyer decided they no longer wanted it and requested to cancel. I've relisted it, but even if it does sell there may not be enough time to transfer from PayPal to my bank account, then to my credit card. Paying in cash for the motel is not an option because I would have to pay the security deposit up front too. Ballooning the cost to much more than is possible for me.
So that's why I am desperate enough to make this fundraiser. I am just hoping for enough to cover what I would have if that sale had gone through. If any extra is raised it will go towards food during my stay. I would rather go hungry and be able to stay away, than stay here. Because it honestly feels like I won't be able to survive another year of it. I want more than anything this year is to have calmness elsewhere, please. I know the people I live with won't take that well, but it's still worth it.
Firstly I need to request that this doesn't get shared to the people I live with or their family. I really, really need to request that for my safety.
My living situation is terrible. The people I live with are a house of mirrors with toxicity. But due to unemployment, and having three cats. I do not have the financial stability to move. This gets exponentially worse on holidays. Holidays are supposed to be enjoyable. About togetherness. But they treat it as some ideal that only works if they're aggressive and hateful to obtain it. That if someone has a horrible time then they somehow deserved to. Previous years have included a physical fight because the tree didn't have enough decorations on it, to ripping-up and burning cards I had saved to open on Christmas Day. I feel the utmost that I do not have the fortitude to stay at this residence over another Christmas. I've already been going to a community dinner for years, but this year even being in the house doesn't seem like a bearable option.
I have been planning staying elsewhere over Christmas since last year's and have booked accommodations well in advance to do so. I worked a short government job to fund it and everything seemed to be going on track. The job’s pay was supposed to cover the stay, as well as to pay up several bills I have. This went pear-shaped when the payment 2 weeks after became delayed for 8 weeks. Due to the delay that when it finally did arrive it got devoured by payment arrangements, and interest to cover just the bills. But I had the choice of losing my telephone which would be terrible for job searching, or to beg then cover it with my delayed pay. I hoped that I would have time to save up enough to cover the motel still anyway. I even sold a copy of “Death Stranding" on eBay knowing it would sell and give me most of what I still needed. It did sell, and then hours later the Buyer decided they no longer wanted it and requested to cancel. I've relisted it, but even if it does sell there may not be enough time to transfer from PayPal to my bank account, then to my credit card. Paying in cash for the motel is not an option because I would have to pay the security deposit up front too. Ballooning the cost to much more than is possible for me.
So that's why I am desperate enough to make this fundraiser. I am just hoping for enough to cover what I would have if that sale had gone through. If any extra is raised it will go towards food during my stay. I would rather go hungry and be able to stay away, than stay here. Because it honestly feels like I won't be able to survive another year of it. I want more than anything this year is to have calmness elsewhere, please. I know the people I live with won't take that well, but it's still worth it.
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