Getting Back on My Feet -For Good!

*The emergency in this is that I have until the 17th to ensure I don't lose my apartment...and more importantly my babies*

I'm sorry for the spam. I'm sorry for complaining. I have to stop saying I'm sorry for how I am. I've have loved ones call me crazy. I just want to get better.

This is for rent to keep the kids. If it were just me, I could let it go. I've come too far to let them down. Ive had them over 10 years. If I didn't believe in myself (often, because others have) I wouldn't keep em embarrassing myself, but pride is not helpful. I have wonderful people, and amazing parents who have done more than they should for me. They're pushing me up while I'm trying to climb.

I did not plan on doing all of this, again. It's time to address the problem instead of jumping into things when I'm clearly unprepared.

Heya,

A lot of people know I've been struggling for the past couple of years. I had a lot of loss. It seemed like too much to try to deal with one thing before another hit me. I've already suffered from a number of mental illnesses since I was fairly young, so on top of that, I kinda fell apart. I am trying to keep going with eBay, get back into sculpting and after conversations with my doctor, doing my best to get on disability for a short term to get things back together I've let go. Everything on my car is expired, I can't keep up with rent...my main focus is to make sure my babies never go without. They keep me going along with the few that stick by me. I'm blessed with kind people, and kind cats....most of the time.

Absolutely anything helps. I'm really struggling and it's hard to get anything straight when there's constant pressure of losing my apartment...which I keep coming painfully close to, not being able to drive my car, coming close to not being able to pay for medication and unfortunately not being able to get assistance with bills. I can't wait for the day I can look at someone else who needs help, and I'm back in the saddle and working..and I can help them. Thank you to the people who have already done so much; money, cat stuff, kind words, prayers.. everything. I'm so grateful for wonderful parents and family (that includes friends...yiu know who you are). You remind me I'm still a person.

Just to add: Over 3 years sober thru all of this insanity! God is good.