Miranda & Erik IVF Journey.

I am setting up this GoFundMe in hopes that we can help take this financial burden off them. Your support will not go unnoticed.

 

please read below to hear their story!

 

Our journey started in October 2018, after being married for one year we decided on a whim to start trying for a baby. While we didn’t necessarily think it would happen within the first month we never could’ve imagined that 3.5 years later we would still be trying (that’s 46 continuous months).

 

At the beginning of our journey we had only shared with a few close friends and family members that we were trying. For almost 2 full years we kept most of the journey to ourselves. Why you might ask? Because it hurt to much. It was almost physically impossible to discuss without crying (especially in the early stages before we had any actual answers). Infertility has a way of making you feel inadequate, broken physically & emotionally, and makes you question every ounce of your self worth.

 

In August 2020, after 2 years I (Miranda) finally got the courage to schedule an appointment with my doctor to discuss our journey. I truly regret waiting this long but I was terrified. When you can’t get pregnant after 2 years and with little knowledge of fertility the worst fear is being told you can’t conceive at all. At the appointment after bloodwork and ultrasounds, I was diagnosed with PCOS. This itself came as a shock and was heartbreaking. PCOS comes with a whole slew of problems, but it is one of the main causes of infertility in women.

 

During the appointment my doctor advised she would prescribe 6 months worth of medication to induce ovulation. If we were unable to conceive in the 6 months, she would be referring us to a fertility clinic. Things seemed to shift at this point, with more pressure & fear. After 3 medicated cycles and no luck, we decided to get Erik tested. This came with some unexpected and upsetting news. However we continued with the rest of our medicated cycles and LOTS of tests later for Erik, we decided to take the leap and made the appt with the Fertility Center in November 2021.

 

We were hopeful that we would be candidates for IUI and be able to avoid IVF. But after more tests and countless appts the urologist told us our fate… and it happened to be our worst fear. IVF would be our best option to conceive a biological child. While we knew in our hearts that it was going to come to this, it was still a major heartbreak. How will we ever afford this? It felt like starting a family was farther away from us than it ever had been before. All hope felt lost. The scariest part of IVF is that you can spend all this money and the risk is that you could still end up with no babies, but alas we were/are willing to risk it all in HOPES of having your family.

 

This journey makes you question everything - why me, how will everyone react, what comments will they make, what’s wrong with us, is this karma of some kind, are we not meant to be parents? We have never been pregnant, we have never seen the 2 lines on a test signifying that we would be parents. And it’s hard not to question the harsh reality of IF we ever will. Infertility takes a lot from you. It’s hard to continue hoping and praying with the same optimism and positivity at month 46 that you had at month 3.

But month after month we keep picking ourselves up and putting one foot in front of the other in hopes that one day this will all be worth it.