Once upon a time I was born in a certain body and this led to a cascade of decisions, and actions and looping effects, which produced a certain way of being, which at some point stopped resonating with me, and here we are today. I'm having what they call top surgery. But I'm also a PhD student who only gets paid 9 months a year and unfortunately, part of the procedure I want/need won't get covered by insurance.

It turns out the insurance thinks you need to preserve nerve sensations in knees, or elbows or other places, but not on the chest; at least not if you were born with my kind of chest.

However, I had some weird numbness on the right side of my body after head injuries (you have probably already heard me complain about this) and the thought of losing more nerve sensation, right across my heart, doesn't sound gender affirming (or appealing).

So:

for a world with chest masculinization which retains nipple sensation; for a crip world in which even the dudes get to feel things over their heart, and fuck the patriarchal nipple bureaucracy.

[If you're a serious person and want serious medical evidence, and don't understand what the hell I was talking about up until now, here are some references . Please help me pay for my nips].

Thanks,

Milo

(they/he)