Saturday July 9th I was doing normal people things. Last thing I remember is putting strawberry’s in baggys to take to work. I had 1 single drink. I woke up the next day with a tube in my throat. I had attempted suicide with zero recollection of it. I was thrashing because I didn’t know what was going on. The hospital kicked my mother and long time boyfriend out because of how I was acting. My mother who was chronically I’ll checked herself into the ER so she could stay near me. She was discharged Sunday morning at approximately 6am. Later that day my boyfriend accidentally FaceTimed her at 1pm ish, she was okay just worried about me. I was put back to sleep and awoke Monday about 8pm. I ate 10 puddings. I was feeling fine. The next day I asked to call my mom, the nurse looked back at me and made a weird face and said your mom? And walked out. I was so out of it I totally forgot and my boyfriend came to see me, I could see through the window him speaking to the nurses for a few mins before coming in. We hung out for about 20 mins and I saw some security offers walk by and made it Obvious that they were staring at me, I asked my boyfriend what was that about? Then a few minutes after that my nurse came and asked to speak to My boyfriend. I asked why, they said to speak about my discharge. A few minutes later my boyfriend came back and with his lip quivering he told me. He told me my mom wasn’t here anymore. She has taken her life, it’s my belief that she did because she didn’t think I was going to make it. So I was transferred to a mental health institute. Still no Recollection of the incident at all my boyfriend was home for a little but had to leave and that’s when I did it. I took as many pills as a could supposedly, and started my car in my garage. I texted my mother “I love you and I’m sorry” she knew something was up and came to my house, my boyfriend tried to open our garage from his app but my car was in neutral and stuck on the garage so my mother who was disabled was not able to push my car off, so she went inside my house which was also full of carbon monoxide and crawl down the stairs because she had a hard time walking. She is the reason I am here today but I feel as I am the reason that she is not here today. I am just asking for help to cover my medical bills which I know are going to be extensive and to help cover some of the costs of cleaning out her apartment. It is tough telling my story but it will all be for not if I am not able to live on her legacy, thank you and I appreciate you.