Matt Midgley

Sunday will mark 4 weeks since my operation, and on having physically pushed myself a little today I am forced to accept I am a long way off being capable of working again. Can't lie, this has absolutely crushed my optimism and resolve.

I am not ok. At all.

It has become apparent that financial destitution will occur a lot quicker than I had first thought. I figured I'd have no choice but to declare bankruptcy as a result of all this, as I had been struggling keeping plates spinning and making ends meet before all this, but as things stand I'll be homeless by this time next month.

Only action I can think to take is an everything-must-go sale of anything I have that I won't need to earn when I do finally recover. Main things off the top of my head:

- electronic drum kit

- fender stratocaster (made in mexico)

- Digital DJ controller

- blackstar sonnet amp

- some guitar pedals

Honestly, I don't have it in me to do negotiations etc. if you want any of the above, let me know.

If anyone can help me navigate the bankruptcy process, I'd appreciate that enormously also.

If anyone knows of a means to speak to a therapist/councillor short notice and free (a massive ask, I know) that would be extremely pertinent too. I'm really not coping at all.

Sorry to be such a downer, especially in light of receiving so much positivity. I can't pretend the situation moving forward isn't absolutely fucked, and that I have very little ability to do much about it right now. And that's... not easy to deal with.

Fuck ‍♂️