Marley’s end of life treatment

Hi, I can’t  Believe im here writing this, I’ve dreaded this day for many years and nothing could have prepared me for the last 24 hours, today I found out my world, my baby, my best friend after nearly 11 years by my side unfortunately has only been given 3/6 months to live.

yesterday we where on a walk and my boy just collapsed, we rushed him down to the vets, after tests and scans. We where informed he had internal bleeding however due to so much blood, they where unable to locate where the bleed was coming from, I was advised due to Marley’s age and the seriousness of his condition, he most likely wouldn’t make it. I will be honest, I was given the decision to let Marley go peacefully at the first hurdle, but 11 years he helped me, through my hardest times, I wouldn’t be here without him and that’s a fact. How could I, his dad, his best friend, his owner give up on him without trying. I just had to, he deserved to have someone return all the love and care he has given out to me and so many people that know him, Marley isnt just a dog, he’s part of the family, he’s part of the gang, he’s part of my business my mascot, he’s everything.

I asked to see him before his op and make the decision. I was warned before I went in that he was in a worse condition than before and not to be to distressed by his current state, I would like to say being a typical bloke i put a brave face on, however that would be a lie, I had already ugly cried all over the vets before then so I didn’t care anymore I just wanted to see him. When I walked into that room and saw him

on the floor belly shaved, oxygen mask with 3/4 vets around him, it felt like I froze and time stopped for just a second. There was my whole world just on the floor. And there was literally not a thing in this would I physically could do, I felt helpless. I forgot immediately how many people where in the room and just dived down to him, I took the mask from the vet and just held him, cuddled him and embraced the most amazing thing I have ever had the pleasure of having In my life. He changed my life from being a nobody at 19, living on sofas and my car. Not working no real drive for anything. He gave me something to get up for, to work for and love and cherish something that was solely mine,

looking at his current state I was starting to feel I was being unfair to keep him around like this, I always look into Marley’s eyes whenever we cuddle, I’ve always said the same thing to him, “ I see you”. It maybe strange however I feel when I look into that dogs eyes I see him in there, I see his energy, his personality his whole aura. I said this to him and he looked at me the way he always does I could still “see” my baby in there. he lifted his head Up and just gave me the look to say don’t be upset I’m okay, because as always Marley’s looks after me even when it should be the other way around, maybe some other people would have decided different, however I felt like he was telling me don’t give up on me yet, so I cuddled him stroked him talked to him and after a good 20 minutes of the vets pressing for a decision, we went ahead with his operation. i was told he most likely wouldn’t make it. But I just had to try.

after the most horrible and longest 2/3/4 (I lost count) hours of my life Marley successfully pulls through his operation, whilst he was coming around the surgeon explained to me that they had discovered Marley spleen is riddled with tumours. unfortunately 2 had burst and had been bleeding for some time. He lost 4.5 litres of blood. They had to remove his entire spleen however with everyone’s thoughts and prayers he pulled through. Because that’s my boy, he’s a fighter!

due to seriousness of the condition, I will get the full name very soon. Even though he pulled through Marley has been given a lift expectancy of 3/6 months and the next 72 hours are crucial for him

due to other tumours and tumour cells within the blood that had spread internally. As much as it ripped my chest inside out to here. I had an answer, something to process and a time frame to work out what is best for my Marley. Marley is receiving continued treatment at the vet Southampton millbrook today, he came home with me last night as unfortunately I didn’t have the finances to cover nearly £4000 for blood transfusion, transport to another vets and over night care etc etc. I had the choice to go ahead and keep this treatment going, however I was advised This problem will not go away and most likely will have the same process again for another £4000 - plus continued care after passing £5/6000 easily. As hard as it has been to come to terms with, I can’t put him through that again :(

we have decided to let Marley have the care he needs for his post op care, until he’s well enough to come home permanently with some quality of life, and over the next month or so arrange to have him peacefully put down at a later date, if this isn’t the case and he will be in pain I will of course not go ahead with this. We where told he would need blood, to be transported and returned in the morning for tonight and same again tomorrow’s again incur life changing costs. I’ve paid for everything I can, Marley’s operation alone was £1900. We need further Scans ,bloods and tests and further care will most likely be another £2000. . Then end of life care depending how the next 72 hours ago will likely be another £1000.

im kindly asking anyone if you could donate anything towards giving my Marley the best end of life care I can get him, but that is also fair on him.

unfortunately due to the cost and transport for over night care also being crippling I’ve decided to take Marley home for night care with me, to be returned at 8am today and tomorrow for fluids and continued care,

the current decision of Marley is of course still in the balance, however i couldn’t afford or raise £10,000 for 2 weeks of care day and night. More Blood transfusions etc.

I feel the lowest of the low to not have the money he needs to pay however I’ve spent every penny I have so far and exhausted all other options.

I embarrassingly ask if anyone can help me with the costs of his current outstanding bill and further treatment to come, to get him through the next 72 hours and to hopefully be able to maybe have another couple of months with my world, to cherish him spoil him and give him the best time he deserves and get to really say goodbye, I don’t think I’ll ever be ready to do so but atleast I’ll have some time :(

if you have read this far, I’m grateful for even this and if you can’t donate I just you have Marley in your prayers any questions please just ask . ❤️