Dear friends and family. I didnt know how to begin writing this as my heart is absolutely broken into a million pieces- but I know that there are a lot of you out there who are worried about us. We are physically ok. Our family was able to make it out of that huge fire. But, we lost our home and everything in it- all 18 years of me and Mark’s life together and the life and love that we were building with our children- GONE! I waffle between trying to understanding that He has a plan and being faithful and being utterly overcome with grief and pain and heartache for the material things. I am most grateful that all our family was able to get out safely. Im most grateful to my brothers and sisters in law and their kids who- while I was driving out of harms way- was running toward it-and my husband who stayed and risked their lives in the valley to fight the fire on their own with water until there was none left in the pipes. I am grateful to my husband- whose main concern was not disappointing me. I love you, Mark- more than you’ll ever understand! To all of you who have extended your love and help to us by running to Costco for us, getting clothes together for us,- we truly appreciate it- its weird realizing that your daughter cant go to soccer just yet cause she doesnt have soccer shoes- or even an extra tshirt; Or that your son is heartbroken over his school backpack that he was just starting to enjoy;or that you dont have a breast pump anymore for your lil baby! There are some truly sentimental things that were lost- like plants that my dad gave me when we were first starting our yard up there- they were plants from his mom-and Im trying not to let my mind wander there...cause its always followed with tears and this nagging sorrow in my naau. Mom and Lex, what can I say? Peewee and Aloha- your strength and faith (and friendship) is helping to buoy us up. Pu, I love you, too! So, tomorrow starts a new day of trying to move forward. I told my husband that as long as Ive got them with me, I believe we’ll rise above the ashes!