Maria Del Pilar Perez Ramirez

Hello everyone, my name is Vivian and i am Maria Del Pilar’s daughter, the middle child of 5 kids. This hurts my heart so much to have to make this profile for my mommy but i know i’m doing it for a great cause & i know my mom would do anything for me and my siblings in a heartbeat & i just want to be able to reciprocate that same energy for her. Right now my mom is currently in the ICU and is on life support, she has been in there fighting for 6 days with so many complications to her body and the doctors are trying the best that they can for her but with everything going on they don’t believe she will make it and they cannot do any operations that she needs to survive through this because her body is too weak and she isn't a candidate for surgery because it is to risky. She has not been able to eat in 6 days because she has esophageal varices & there is risk of her bleeding from the feeding tube. Or she cant take her medication that she really needs called lactulose which helps rid the ammonia in her body that her liver usually gets rid of because of the intubation. Right now shes on 24 hr dialysis. They found that the reason she was extremely sick when we took her to the emergency room was because she had in infection in her stomach & part of her bowel is now dying. My family and I have to come up with the hardest decision of our lives soon and its if we would see it best to switch my mom from supportive care and into comfort care and let nature take its course. As far back as i can remember my mother has always had a very humble & compassionate soul, especially towards others, she was the kindest little lady to everyone around her with the brightest smile on her face and is so well loved for her strong, courageous, & brave heart and beautiful personality. She is so well know to being so empathetic to every person whoever came into contact with her, and i thank her for showing me to be the exact same way. On days when she didn't even feel her best she always gave the best advice possible and always wanted to be able to help make you feel 100x better than she felt. She is the type of person to go above & beyond and put every person before herself. Im so grateful and proud to have her as my example & inspiration to never let this hard life get you down & if it knocks you down 10x you get back up and fight & to always always always spread love. In July of 2018 my mom was diagnosed with cirrhosis of the liver, & since then it has been a constant battle with her health. Because of the liver failure she develops ascites which is constant fluid build up in her abdomen that needs procedures to drain the fluid from her belly. In May of this year she was in a bad car accident with my younger sister. She was driving home from the store with her, they were 5 minutes away from home when she was struck on her drivers side door with the other driver going full speed, she suffered from a huge hematoma on the left side of her face & multiple bruising to her body that lasted weeks because my mom suffers from having low platelets because of her liver, she was in pain management for a week & 1/2 at inland valley where she went in through the trauma center before we were able to bring her home. At that time i decided to quit my job to stay home & take care of her because she needed me & she required a lot of support, a walker to get around and it was very difficult for her to do things on her own, then we started to take notice to her decline in health. In June of this year she was also diagnosed with Renal(kidney) failure. So the doctors recommended she should be put on dialysis for 3x a week. I went to every appointment with her from doctors appts. to emergency visits, each dialysis appointment and I stayed with her through them because i know it was a difficult time for her to do it own her own. Im so grateful to have had the chance & opportunity be with her during that hard time for her. My mom always deserved the best this world has to offer and it breaks my heart that she had to endure so may hardships in her life, from the passing of her mom at a young age, to an extremely abusive relationship with my father, struggling as a single parent, all her medical changes that she didn’t have any control over & and alcohol addiction she suffered in silence. But i’m so proud to have her because even though she had an addiction it never changed her, she was always a hard working woman, always made sure we had food in our mouths, clothes on our back, & a roof over our head. And everything we ever needed, we had. But regardless of how hard things got for her she ALWAYS showed us to NEVER gave up. This is extremely difficult time for my family and I because we are torn between not losing hope that one day she will get better but deep down we just want to make the best decision for her & not allow her to suffer anymore, She deserves to be happy again. It’s been so hard because i cant fathom not having my mom here with us, she is my bestfriend & she will always continue to be my best friend. I just wish we can hold each other again one last time and she can tell me everything is going to be alright. And i just hope to make her so proud and make the best decisions in my life based on what she thinks I deserve. Im so scared because i'm barely 22 years old, i will become the guardian to my little brother, my youngest siblings are 19 and 16, & my heart breaks for them but i just hope to be the woman my mom was and show my siblings the right ways of the world just like my mom always wanted and be the best example for them. She always taught us to have ambition & to work hard for the things we care passionately about, because success is not a destination, it’s a journey. Never allow your circumstances to stop you from what you want in life because with God all things are possible. But i know she prepared me well & provided me with the best tools for this job & i never knew my purpose in this world when i was younger but now i know i was put here to take care of them for when the time came for when my mom couldn't be here with us on this earth anymore, and her purpose here had been full filled, but i know she will always live on in our memories & she will ALWAYS be here in spirit❤️ She provided us with the best foundation to always stick together through thick and thin & she will always be our rock and will always be our ‘Pilar’ of strength. I am a strong woman because a strong woman raised me. I thank God everyday for blessing my family and I with her amazing energy and presence. She our real life guardian angel, i know she will continue to protect us and I cant wait to meet her in another lifetime & to be reunited with her again, but i know she has full filled her purpose here with us & i cant continue to watch her suffer because she genuinely doesn’t deserve that. I know she will be in good hands under God’s wings in heaven with my grandma and uncles & i know she misses grandma so i'm happy for her that she is going to be reunited with her again..... but don't worry I’ll see you in my dreams mommy❤️
i just hope she never thought i took her for granted because i love that woman so much it hurts. But right now things are financially tight for me, and with the cost of the memorial I will need some help. My family will try to help with the most that they can but I just ask to have any little help you are able to provide for my family and I at this time and any contribution is greatly appreciated. 

“There are no goodbyes, wherever you are, you will always be in my heart.” – Mahatma Gandhi

Thank you very much for taking the time to read a little bit of my mom’s story & God Bless.
-With much love,Vivian

10:10AM 
My mom’s birthday is Oct.10
-1010 indicates that it is a time of personal development, spiritual awakening and enlightenment. Keep your thoughts, focus and intentions on your soul mission and life purpose, and your elevated vibrations will attract abundance and positive energies into your life.

Thank you,God & I Love you & Mom.