Help me smile again

Hello, I'm Alexandra, or Alex for short. I'm a disabled transman who's gone through some really awful situations in the past ten or so years, leaving me pretty much in the state I'm in now. But.

I need help.

I'm not the type to typically be so open about my personal life, especially when it concerns my personal health, but as time has progressed, things have only worsened for me and it's getting to a point I'm actually a little scared. The assessment I received back in February of 2022 has sat in my email for over a year because I've been fighting with myself ever since receiving it on whether I should go public with it or not. I have a lot of personal qualms against doing this because it's both embarrassing and humiliating for me, but several of my friends have encouraged me to step up and finally do this for the sake of my health.

I need dental work. Approximately $10,000 worth of it, as you'll see in the tweets below the one promoting this fundraiser. Fortunately, the place I got my original assessment from has an office literally a few miles down from where I'm living now, giving me a lot more comfort and peace of mind about pursuing this. I'm not going to get into specifics because it's my personal business, but a combination of terrible genetics and some really awful, shitty situations that left me with deep-rooted trauma kind of cumulated into not taking care of myself for a very long time up until perhaps a few years ago, when I started getting therapy and taking my health more seriously. I still kind of faltered now and then from the trauma, but I've improved.

And as many of my friends and followers have seen, especially this year, my quality of life has improved significantly. So I'm at a point where I really want to get better, but even though I'm working, it's not enough to get the help that I really need.

I don't like talking about the poor relationship I have with my health. It's not the best, it never has been, and it's been progressively getting worse. A lot of these things ( the ocular migraines causing blindness in my right eye, the vertigo, the heart issues, the hypotension ) were identified to be sourced from my bad teeth. Many of my issues would improve or even go away with them being fixed, so I'm here now writing this out to say that I really do need help. I don't usually like asking for it for myself; the past few times I've asked for money was to just help me care for, and then say goodbye to the two relatives I recently lost. It's easier for me to ask to help someone else than it is for myself lmao

I don't really know where I'm going with this but I appreciate any time you take out of your day to read this, to spread it around, or to donate. And anything I receive goes directly into getting my problems sorted out. Periodic updates will be posted to my twitter, as well as this page. Thank you so much.

https://twitter.com/dear_solstice