Hey,

Im Mills (they/them)

Im a queer, creative, living a lovely little life in London.

In January my life changed unexpectedly, I experienced physical and sexual abuse by my (then) partner.

This has taken a long time to remember, admit, and my understanding is still limited, as I feel my sense of reality has been snatched from me.

In order to live a life seeking joy, it’s now or never to start processing.

Since the assault, my auto-immune disease has flared up, meaning my skin has broken out in a rash, and cracks/bleeds most days. This is very painful, and I would adore to fundraise for ‘Red Light Therapy’.

(The waitlist with the NHS is years!)

Also, since, my period remains for several weeks at a time, or doesn’t come at all. Both result in dizziness, drowsiness, and nausea.

I would love some privatised uterus/hormone tests, to check everything is okay, £££.

I have learnt that the body reacts, even when the mind is repressing!

And finally, I would like to fundraise for my mind. Everyday my life is impacted by this. I wake up thinking about it. I go to sleep wondering when my dreams will get easier. I often wake up sweating or in a panic attack, as if my body is storing the memories.

I hope by applying myself to psychotherapy, EDR or other sorts of intentional therapies, my paranoia will fade, and I will be able to start my healing journey and life with the right people around me.

I want to move through this more than anything, but to do that I need your help.

Anything you have to donate is appreciated. As with many abusers, I lost a lot of money ‘supporting him’.

I am truly thankful for escaping the cycle when I could and for this second chance <3