Lost Family Savings on Reddit Gamestop Pump n Dump

I fell into the Gamestop cult on Reddit and lost all of my families savings in the Pump and Dump. I've never invested in anything before and believed every bit of it and kept holding until it crashed. My dad cannot walk and is on a disabilities pension, so the amount of money we lost is a lot to us. My dad believes in me too much, which is why he so freely gave me the money unaccosted when I told him. I don't feel like I want to die, but I feel like throwing up all the time, and I cannot focus on anything without wanting to cry. Feels bad man.


I currently have no money left in my bank accounts after having to sell this stock at a big loss to pay for February rent, food and bills. I'm not looking for everything I lost, I just want to be able to pay him back the money I borrowed because he means a lot to me.

If I could just get enough to pay my dad back, I would be okay.
Thank you for your kindness.