Lonnies Heartbeat of Hope

Hi, my name is Lonnie.

If we are not already connected, perhaps we will meet one day. Thank you for taking the time to stop and read these words. They are important to me and to the people in my life who love me.

I believe, with your help, we can heal my body.

Here is my short story…

Over the past five years, I have been blessed with the incredible and wonderful praises people have used to describe me. I won’t share them because, honestly, they are both beautiful and difficult to hear.

It wasn’t that I didn’t believe them, it was that I always felt those words and phrases should be reserved for the ‘greats’. I did not believe I was one of ‘those’ people, because ‘those’ people survived extreme suffering to become ‘great’. I did not believe I was worthy of such accolades.

I cannot afford that self-judgement now.

Since my stage 4 cancer diagnosis in 2019, it is true that I have experienced suffering. My body has been through an immense war. Mainstream medicine has done all they can do. I have done the battle of drug trials, two surgeries, and deep-dived down the avenues of many alternative and holistic approaches.

I have prayed, wept, and danced.

I have gone on vision quests to find the truth of why I must suffer, and I have taken stock of all of the darker places of my soul; also looking for my why.

I almost beat it so many times and I am not done yet… but the time for battle is over.

There is no more questioning why… only moving forward.

Yes, I guess I can say I have suffered. I have had to let go of the land where I raised my 3 children, and 27 heartfelt years in the birthing of my school, where my school family could thrive and grow up to be the amazing humans they are.

I have let go of so much and moved away from that life into a life that is both simpler and infinitely more challenging… and then there is the matter of time.

Oh, just to have more time to say all of the things I want to say, and to keep giving, and embodying the human everyone sees in me – I want to see that in me before I go.

I believe that we are all one of the ‘greats.’ If we could all just see that.

My unwanted birthday gift this year was significant growth in the largest of one of my tumors. This gift has not only brought me daily pain, as organs and nerves are constantly feeling the pressure of the masses, it is threatening my life.

It is indescribable. I have no words.

Going forward, I could never imagine not experiencing all the beauty, spirit, transformation, and growth that has been such an important part of my journey. I am not finished healing yet, in all the ways I need to be healed.

I know there is more I can do, if I can just get myself there. If we could just get me there.

It Takes a Village… and I need you now, if you are willing. I no longer have the luxury of time. My soul and my body have asked me to travel to a healing center in Sedona, AZ. There is something important there I feel is key to my healing. The cost to fly and stay there is $50,000+ CAD.

That’s $50,000 for my life.

If you have read this far, I feel blessed, as we have already shared this space and energy. That is healing in itself - to be seen, heard, and understood.

Whatever you can find in your heart to offer will be gratefully accepted and paid forward as I am able. Your contribution will literally mean the world to me, my family, & my soul tribe. I am all in!

I want with all of my heart whatever precious moments your love might offer me.

Be. And be well.

Love,

Lonnie