This is my last resort... After decades of helping others, I'm now in a horrible position and I need help. I hate asking, but I have no other option. You know how every time someone takes their life, family and friends always say "I would've done anything to help, if I had known". This is the point I'm at. Right now, I shouldn’t still be here and I have no idea how I’m alive right now.

This is literally my last resort before giving up. Any donations would be GREATLY appreciated more than you'll ever know!

Edit to add:

I apologize for the confusion in the wording of my statements. I literally can’t think straight anymore. The monetary help being requested is to help take care of bills to clear it all from my name, so I can focus on my mental health With everything stacked up on my, I feel like I’m at a complete loss and wake up everyday living for nothing. Most days I wonder what’s the point to keep on going. I need a full restart, somewhere else. The only person I have left is my wife Who does everything she can to help, but even through it all, I feel like a complete failure. I have to find a way to start a new life. I have basically zero family left or I would speak to them before ever resorting to something like this.