Hello! Lots of you may know me from Twitch, some of you may not. I'm Llama and I've been living with daily pain for nearly 12 years now. I've spent around £20,000 trying to diagnose and treat it over the years privately, and eventually the NHS told me there was nothing else they could do to help me.

Last year I sought out physio in an attempt to help manage the pain, and my physio said that my symptoms matched another of her patients and it might be worth getting an MRI to check if I had the same issue. In July 2025 I got the results of my MRI and it turned out she was right! I have severe labral tears on both sides of my hips, and I'm a good candidate for surgeries to try to fix it. I'll need two separate surgeries, so I can heal up one side enough before the other is worked on.

Since December of last year the pain has gone up a level and my quality of life is not great, day-to-day. The pain has meant I'm unable to work, rarely leave the house, and when I can sleep, I do. The NHS have been incredibly slow at even getting me in to discuss this so my best hope of getting out of pain has meant turning back to private care.

All together, the cost of both surgeries is £28,390, and if I empty out my savings I was hoping to spend on getting my own home one day (c'est la vie...), I can put £10,000 towards it, so I'm coming to the community at large in hopes of raising a total of £20,000 (£18,390 for both surgeries, and extra to cover GoFundMe transaction fees, travel, and any other unexpected costs during healing).

To get me to the first surgery and on my way to recovering one side, the initial and quite urgent push is for £4,300. After this, there will be a large period of healing before the second operation - during this time I'm hoping we can then work towards raising the remaining £15,700.

I know this is a large amount and will take some time but I'm hopeful we can get there eventually and I can finally be in less, or no, pain! It would be great to have a 'normal' life again where I can do fun things without having to worry about being in pain for days after, and I can get a job and move back out of my parents' house and be independent again. So any amount of money that you're able to chip in is greatly appreciated. Thank you to anyone who read this far.

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