Since I was 15 years old, I'd never found a best friend like Layla. Ever since she got in the car with my dad and me, we've been best friends from the day we met. She's been by my side through all the BS and has protected my family, friends, and myself included. Layla is now ready to go. This is one of the hardest things I've ever had to go through besides losing my father (which Layla is mine and his dog). Living life without them both is going to hurt my soul. I love this dog so, so much, and I've done everything I could to try and keep her happy and healthy and give her the best life possible. Unfortunately, God is starting to call her home. She's holding on, and she's so strong, but I can't continue to watch my baby girl suffer the way she is. If I do, then I'm being selfish and not doing what's best for her. It's killing me to see her in the condition she is in right now.

About 2 weeks ago, her backside gave out, and she completely stopped walking. She would try to walk but couldn't, even as hard as she tried to. Well, it's snowing outside, and whoever knows her knows she is very trained. I've made her a comfortable place on my bed and told her it was okay to go potty on the bed. It took her about 4 days to even go pee because she's so well trained. Well, she started having trouble pooping. I had to give her Gas-X; her belly was swollen, and it just got worse. Days went by, and she started bleeding out of her private area, and it gradually got worse. Well, about 5-6 days ago, I went to change her blankets and pads, and it was straight blood. I took her to the vet, and I haven't had the money to do absolutely anything. The doctors told me because of her age and because of what they see, she's not gonna make it much longer, and they said she wouldn't make it the next 24 hours. My Layla girl is so strong; she's fighting. With that being said, she's in so much pain. She is now having trouble breathing; she won't eat; she'll drink a little, but I can just tell she's trying her best, but she can't take it anymore. I've stayed by her side this entire time, and I don't wanna let go of her, and I know she doesn't wanna let go of me, but I cannot stand to watch her struggle like this. My heart is so broken, and all I want is for her to be at peace. This will break me to pieces, but like I said, I can't sit here and be selfish and watch her suffer any longer.

I would like to cremate her so I can have her with me every day. Get a big urn for myself and a few little ones for a few people who have a very special relationship with Layla and me. I've been out of work for a while with this going on, and also me being sick, I haven't been able to work, so funds right now are extremely tight, and I DO NOT wanna just bury her. I'm asking so kindly for anyone's help.