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HERE'S HOW YOU CAN HELP:
- 1. Donate what you can - No amount is too small, and monthly donations are especially helpful. Truly. $11, $22, $44, $88, $111, $222, $555, $1,111, $3,333, $5,555 — every bit helps cover real costs of Phase 1, so that we can build momentum to Phase 3 (details below)!
- 2. Share the campaign -Share this with your communities, covens, masterminds, group chats, and families. This is how we create a true web of collective care
- 3. Pray / Intend / Ritualize with me - There is an epidemic of women & queer healers who are struggling physically right now with the intensity of all we’ve been asked to hold, especially autoimmune conditions. Let’s create a Heal the Healer Global Prayer Vigil together!
- 4. Send a Letter or Love Note- If you’ve been through a major initiation—illness, burnout, grief, collapse, or a season where you truly had to surrender—I would love for you to send me a letter. A few lines, a paragraph, even a voice note. Something that reminds us we’re not alone, that healing is real, and that being held is holy. A shared human altar where collective care becomes real.
HERE'S WHAT'S HAPPENING
On November 8th, just before my birthday, I almost died alone in a hotel room in Las Vegas in the middle of the night from what I came to find out was a severe episode of Mast Cell Activation Syndrome. It was a life-or-death line in the sand: I could not continue as before. The truth is, I’ve been suffering behind the scenes for five years—getting sicker, more exhausted, more inflamed—without knowing why. Now, after a year of medical initiation, I’ve been diagnosed with advanced stage 2 & 3 Lipedema, Lymphedema, venous insufficiency, hypermobility, MCAS, and long COVID. I’ve spent stretches bed-bound, in pain, unable to work or lead the way I once did, and at times honestly afraid for my life. They want to do 5 surgeries and I don’t think my body can handle that in this moment. I need a gentler way.
For over 15 years, my mission has been to free human spirits to Sparkle SHAMELESSLY—to come home to their bodies, their truth, and their full unapologetic S.T.A.R. Power and sovereignty. I’ve devoted my life to midwifing transformation through ceremony, retreats, oracle decks, shamanic healing, ecstatic embodiment, and sacred (r)evolution… and I’ve held so many through initiation. But now, my body has initiated me—and it’s time for the healer to heal thyself.
I don’t want to quietly “manage chronic conditions” and disappear, however. I want to make this a living ritual—not just a campaign—because part of what I’m healing is the identity I wore to survive: the one who must be strong, carry the lineage pain, push her body, produce to be worthy, martyr for the collective, overgive with leaky boundaries, and heal others while collapsing herself. This is my Radiant Rebirth Chrysalis—and it’s asking everything of me: real raw truth, radical surrender, and the fierce courage to receive at a new level. Essentially, I'm putting out a call for Spiritual PTO for a health sabbatical.
I intend to alchemize this initiation into medicine in real time—no bypassing—honoring the nervous system, feminine cycles, and dismantling body shame & internalized ableism in spiritual & entrepreneurial spaces. Because I know I’m not alone: healers everywhere are burning out, collapsing, and suffering without a village to hold them. Our bodies are moving through the same crisis and life/death/rebirth portal the collective is in. This campaign isn’t just about my medical bills—it’s a sacred NO to the burnout-martyr model of hustle culture and a holy hell YES to activating collective care, remembering that fat, queer, disabled, perimenopausal bodies are holy, worthy of investment, and central to the (r)evolution ahead.
This is the Activate the Collective Matrix of Care card 23 from my Sacred (R)evolution Oracle. I'm being asked to put this into practice now since I’ve reached a critical threshold: medical costs are rising, my capacity to work has dropped to only a few one on one clients and an intimate yearlong group container, and I can’t bootstrap this alone anymore. I’m asking for community care so I can stabilize, cover essentials, and devote myself fully to healing—and I vow to alchemize this chrysalis into art, medicine, and leadership that serves thousands through what’s coming next.
I’m done pretending I can lead without being human; I’m surrendering into the void and letting this breakdown be what it is—a death portal, a paradigm shift, a holy undoing of everything built on pushing, proving, and performing. An unraveling of lifetimes—and deep family lineages—of toxic patriarchy from my body. This is the magnetic, humble power of collapse—the place where the old world dies in the body so the new world can be born through it. This campaign is my trust fall into the web: a radical rebirth and a living global prayer to heal the healers. The body is a portal to our power—and when compromised, it initiates us into truth, surrender, and the sacred necessity of being held.
Our first community goal together is
- Phase 1: Stabilize + Ground $33,000—covering the next six months of remaining baseline expenses so I can finally stop, breathe, and devote myself fully to healing my body temple.
- When we exceed that together, we open Phase 2: Support + Catalyze Healing $44,000, bringing in the recommended medical devices and resources that will accelerate my recovery and reduce daily inflammation and pain.
- And when this community goes beyond that, we enter Phase 3: Full Restoration + Radiant Rebirth $88,000—a complete 9-month chrysalis of deep repair, replenishment, new paradigm business restructuring and the kind of healing support that allows this initiation to become true long-term transformation.
If my work has ever sparked something alive in you… if you believe the body is the way and art is medicine… if your soul is whispering “me too”—come closer. This is a call to collective care, and to being held in the web. Your yes is sacred. Your no is sacred. And either way—thank you for witnessing me at the edge of the old world and the birth of the new. From the bottom of my fierce, tender, sparkly heart… thank you. Truly. I love you BIG! - Lainie Love Dalby
Organizer
