My name is Ryan and I need a little help. I didn't want to do this but people who loved me encouraged me that I needed to let people love on me

Last Tuesday my roommate of 14 years sent me a text to let me know he needed to leave at the end of the year to go help his elderly parents.

I would like to stay where I'm at. I'm close to work to where I can get rides with co-workers or Uber in. Ive already started looking for a replacement but this time of year, with the holidays on top of how little time I have, I'm looking for a little breathing room

I don't want to rush the search for a roommate to where I end up with someone I dont get along with or isn't dependable. That happened to me a long time ago when I was very desperate to get away from my father

I have bad credit so im not sure what that would look like if I had to move into a one bedroom. In the case that happens, money raised would go to that (for example if they require two months upfront) I have started looking into that option as well

While my credit is not the best, I have always paid my rent on time, I do everything I can to be a quality roommate

But im hoping if I have a cushion of time to search, my brain won't sabotage me, and I want be consumed with fear. Plus I want end up with no place to live

My roommate's share of the rent is 840, utilities are usually 80 for water and 150 for KUB before we split

Any money raised will go to nothing more than those bills. I also will have to go about getting water and electric in my name

Like I said my goal is to have his share of rent for a few months, just to give me time.

I think I've made lots of progress this year, going full time at the job, taking my health more seriously, physically and mentally, and I am so scared of stumbling and losing progress, this will help

So if you can help at all, I would be tremendously grateful. And if you can't help financially, your prayers and good vibes would be appreciated, as would be sharing this