Hello! My name is Beep, I am a queer artist with mental illness struggles and I'm just gonna cut right to the chase; the place that I'm living in at the moment is not ideal. It is not the best place for my mental health and I actually think it is making me worse. I feel like a prisoner in, what should be, my own space. I feel like my house mate hates me and I just can't bear it any more. I am desperate to be away from this place and move into my own house/ flat where I can be free and I don't have to worry about walking on egg shells in my own home. I really feel as though my mental state will improve I'd I live alone because at this point I'm seriously considering joining the army so I wouldn't have to be around my housemate and constantly feel bad about myself. I don't feel appreciated and everytime I go to them with a problem or with my feelings they shut me down, tell me I'm being dramatic, laugh it off or they say that I have no right to complain because I don't have a job and therefore I have an "easy life." Completely invalidating anything that I feel instead of having a constructive conversation where we can work through the feelings together.

I do all thr house work the majority of the time and yes, my house mate does have a part time job but even when I had a full time job, I was still the one who did most of the cleaning and took the bin out. Having a job is not an excuse and it's one of the biggest points of conflict. Especially since not even 2 hours after I'll of cleaned somewhere, it's dirty again.

On top of this they don't talk to me. Most recently, it's been days since we've talked and the first thing they say to me is " can you go and get toilet paper? I don't want to go out because I'm going out later" like no "how are you? Are you ok" nope none of that.

I'm just so emotionally and physically drained at this point. I'm so done. I want out. I don't want to be here.

I am currently unemployed, largely due to my mental health issues so is anyone has anything to give that would be a big help! I can sling a little doodle or drawing your way to say thank you!I am currently looking for s job, any money I make from donations here will be going towards a deposit in a new place.