Many of you reading this already know the journey which Kim has been on for the past 7.5 years now, many of you may not.
Kim has been battling with a chronic Depressive and severe Anxiety disorder since 2014. She struggles with daily thoughts of Suicide and has attempted to take her own life several times as well.
Over the course of the past 7 plus years she has spent many months in hospitals and attempted numerous treatments to help her including over 20 concoctions of Antidepressants, Electroconvulsive Treatment (ECT), Neurofeedback, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT), group therapy, Psychotherapy and many other non-traditional treatments as well, all of which have fallen short of her recovery and led her to a further diagnosis of Treatment Resistant Depression several years ago.
Kim does so much for others and has touched so many lives. She started writing a blog 4 years ago where she chronicles her daily struggles and very raw emotions with the world. Through sharing her story she has helped so many people understand the cruel reality of what living with a mental illness is like and she has allowed many more people living with a mental illness feel like they are not alone and that it's okay to not be okay. She has also written and self-published a children's book helping loved ones help children understand and cope with their feelings when someone they love is suffering with Depression and she has remarkably raised over $15,000 for youth mental health as well through a graduation lawn sign initiative she began in the spring of 2020.
Her Psychiatrist has highly recommended that she try Ketamine treatment which has proven to be a great success in patients with Treatment Resistant Depression and suicidal ideations.
She is set to begin her first treatment next week but she has been quite hesitant to do so as her illness has made her believe that she is not worthy of even trying it and that she will once again fail (her words) at yet another attempt at living the life she so deserves. She is also living with a tremendous amount of guilt as there is cost involved in doing such a treatment and our financial situation has been quite dire over the past year and a half due to employment situations and other circumstances and to add further insult to injury, I lost my job yesterday morning.
Asking for help in this way is beyond difficult for me to do but I feel as though Kim's life is more at risk than ever before right now and that if we were to cancel the treatment there is a very good chance we will lose her forever.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for every one of you who continue to love and support Kim on her journey toward mental health and wellness. I am truly grateful to all of you.