"I’m struggling to wrap my head around recent life events and have been hesitant to share. There are only big questions with no answers and as much as I don’t want people to worry, I do know that I need support and whatever goodness the collective can provide. I’d been feeling like shit for a couple of weeks and last week went in for a check up. They ran tests and later that night called me into the ER for an emergency blood transfusion. My immune system was destroying my red blood cells faster than I could make them and my organs were suffering. It’s called Hemolytic Anemia. On its own, scary, but the overwhelming thing is there are different types and they don’t know what triggered it. Maybe a virus or considering my history, something bigger.  I’m out of the hospital now, on a bunch of intense meds with wild side effects and they’re monitoring my response. And I’m just here, living in “wait and see” hell and it is hard. As a woman of action, the not knowing leaves me helpless and fragile in body, mind, and spirit. If I knew what I was dealing with, at least I’d feel like I was in the fight. Right now, I’m benched. A big fat pause on what I had labeled my “year of clarity and evolution.” Best laid plans I suppose. This certainly wasn’t on the to do list and now it feels like the only thing that matters. I have to believe that there is a reason for it. A method to the universe’s madness. A redirection. My doctor gave me the go ahead so Samantha Sledd is taking me camping off grid for a few days to decompress and de stress. I’m gonna float in a lake, lay in a hammock, and soak up all that good good Mother Nature. There is a longer story to tell but I’ll save that for when have more energy. In the meantime, any love, vibes, positive thoughts sent my way will be felt and appreciated through the ether. It’s times like these that remind me of how grateful I am for the people in my life, both near and far. I’ll be okay. I’m sure of it. And I’ll check in when I get back to civilization❤️❤️❤️"