Keeping us together. Help me not lose my unconditional love.

Hello! My name is Jimi and I am hanging by a thread that is on the verge of its final snap. The furry little guy in my photo for my fundraiser is my Pom Marin. He is my world. See, I've suffered over the last five years. I know that a lot of us have. My life has started going down hill with losing my dad. I lost him to cancer. it was devastating to see it go down. I did what we as men are expected to do. I was the strong one for my family. I kept my head held high. After losing my dad the restaurant where I worked as a GM let me go and then started shutting down it's remaining locations and now no longer exists. I had moved on after a few months and started working for a bigger corporate restaurant. life seemed to be getting better. I was moving slowly up. I would cover multiple locations. I did this with the hopes of showing my work ethic and dedication to the company. In all actuality I suffered financially from this. I kept working hard for the end goal . When the pandemic hit I also came across some devastating information about my spouse. There was no way I could continue our marriage. It was devastating. My next loss was my car blowing up. worked it out and got another. Then I broke my leg and was off work for 4 months. I had constant communication with my boss. A week before my return he informed me that he replaced me and I would be doing a serving position and occasional management shifts. This is not okay. You can not support yourself with that kind of scheduling. I was no longer able to buy groceries until the person they used to replace me with showed that he could not actually fulfill any of his duties and was asked to take my job back. Once I did my work life went to hell. The money was better. My co-manager quit due to some major disrespect and actions of our equal and our GM not doing a thing to fix it. Once they were gone I became the one to receive all of the b.s. after almost a year I had started contacting HR when my boss refused to do anything with the years worth of complaints I made.

During this time something more horrendous occured in my life. I am a survivor of sexual assault. 13 years of it. Now, I experienced something far worse. I was drugged, raped and then mutilated. This was absolutely destructive. I worked hard on keeping it together.

My work situation kept getting worse. My boss who was one of the only people that knew what happened tried to use it against me and make me step down. I had been contacting HR a good bit about this other manager and he wanted that to stop. I told him he would have to officially ask me to do so and I would not do it voluntarily. I left and called HR again. I was pushed and bullied one to many times. I was given the only option of transferring even though I did not wish to do that. I just wanted things fixed. This lead me to the downfall.

I could not get ahead. Financially I become destroyed. from this point on I could not buy groceries. I could basically only afford gas. I struggled paying bills. I ended up relapsing afterany years of sobriety. I couldn't handle any type of emotion. I was on a short run. I lost my friends and family though. I went to rehab. I was released earlier than expected, completed though. However, I was homeless. I was turned away by family. My FMLA had not paid me and it would be weeks before I'd see any of that and I had to fight to get it. I lost my insurance. I lost my therapist. I went to the Crisis Center. I received my FMLA payments. I began applying for apartments only to find out after spending well over a thousand in applications fees that I would have no luck moving to Allegheny where my job was. I began searching other locations and started applying for remote jobs since I had no idea where I'd be. I kept plugging applications and credit checks. Almost all of my money went to that. I have no established credit. I have come to realize that is a death sentence.

Marin and I need a home. I can't lose him. I need to reclaim my cat before I lose her. I have found possiblities of apartments and now I am out of money. if these places pass me up, I need to think of a backup plan which is to buy a camper and live in a camper. So I'm here asking for help. I don't want to lose my dog. I don't want to lose my cat and I can't do this on my own. I've applied for every single thing I can think of and I'm getting nowhere. I've been living like this for 3 months. I'm either couch surfing or sleeping in a tent. It is just me and my pup. if I can't get something worked out here very shortly I'm going to lose my cat. they are all that I have. they are my family. I've lost everyone else due to my own actions. it's been extremely rough and I've literally been fighting that feeling of wanting to give in and let go. I do not want to kill myself and I am living in fear that that could happen. So I'm asking for help. I just need to keep my pets. I need to find a roof to put over our heads. once that is done I can get another job. I can take us care of us again and make sure our life is better.

I need help to get it home. I need to make sure that I can continue seeing my therapist and losing my insurance has not been helpful. I need help to just keep everything started and moving forward. please please help. that's all I can ask. thank you!.

We have checked out several locations for possible homes. We are still struggling with a place that would accept my lack of credit. We still need to raise at least another $1,200 just to get out feet in the door of a new place. I now have both pets and living as a homeless man with them is challenging. I haven't given up hope and still need a good bit of help. I have found a job. It's not very many hours and barely brings in any money. It's a step up though. It's hard trying to work and not have a solid place for my fur babies.