Keeping on for James

My world. My beautiful angel from above. We had to say see you later to my big brother. Never in a million years did I think we would have to lose you. This earth was not good enough for you. You were to pure. Too pure. Too perfect. Your heart gave the most unconditional love. Your intelligence blew me away. You knew nothing but love. Looking into your eyes behind your long beautiful lashes that I wish I had. How soulful they were. The most beautiful eyes. You saw the world differently. Your forgiving nature. I can never forget the day. The words hurt too much to type about you being in the past. I can’t reiterate it enough that you are the present. You are still here. Mommy needs you, Daddy needs you. We love you. We will never stop. You are the first born. The first grandson for both. The first nephew for some. The only brother I have. What do I do without you now here? You were supposed to be a brother in law one day. You were supposed to be called Uncle James. Have our own family and have our children have cousins. Grow old with me. You were supposed to help me grieve when the time comes when we lost our parents. No parent should have to lose their child. Sister loves you. Sister gave you your last haircut. Shaved your beard. Shared white claws with me. Piggy back rides around the house carrying me like we were kids again. Mommy was the first person to feel your first breath and feel your last breath. You came into this world with her and you left with her. Mommy loves you so much. Daddy loves you. You were the biggest accomplishment because the unconditional love you have given them. You are a fighter. And you fought for so long. So so long. You and the only people you shared with were my friends and our family. My friends who you know are my sisters are your sisters. WE need you. Please give me wings. Please come to me in my dreams, show me you are still with me. Please come back. Please give me the strength to be the daughter to relieve the pain from Mommy and Daddy. To everyone who is reading this. Thank you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for reading this to hear about James’ beautiful life. It shows you care. It shows you want to love his beautiful heart. I beg of you. To please help my parents provide a service for James and cover the costs associated without worrying about where it is going to come from. I thank you for hearing me out. Thank you for listening. Thank you for helping.