Keeping a roof and the lights on under it!

I can’t thank you enough for just reading this. Like many, I’ve had a difficult year. I successfully fought a terrible battle with extreme panic and anxiety disorder borderline agoraphobia. When I lost my beloved father this year it actually helped me to put my emotions in a different direction as horrible grief filled my world. Even though I suffered a serious back injury in a nearly fatal car accident I still work 3-4 jobs at a time to make ends meet. I can’t afford the medication that helps me to just function. Now I’m facing reduced hours and find myself looking at losing my home as of November 1. I have a furry family of rescue babies that need to stay together. I’ve tried to apply for loans and line of credit but the only way is to pay back twice what I borrow and I don’t know if I can do that. I tried to sell my belongings but that doesn’t seem to be working.

I don’t want gifts from anyone, I want to be able to pay everyone back. I fought out of the dark hole of panic/ anxiety disorder and I believe I can get to a place of prosperity but I cannot do it if I am constantly stressed about every penny and taking on as many jobs as I can and crying all night. 

Now my old computer has died and the phone company wants the phone back that came with the plan if I don’t pay my bill. I just can’t take much more. I have no where to go. 

I am loath to ask but I need help. I need to not live in constant fear of losing everything no matter how hard I try. I have realistic dreams that can be fulfilled if I can just get out from under this terrible fear of impeding loss. 

I am currently trying to put together a series of pitches for what I’m told are exceptional show ideas and perhaps you can consider this a contribution towards financing the pre-production. 

I’m so sorry. I’m just really scared. I’ve reached the point where I can’t go any farther without help. Im a good person, a kind person and I try to help others (human AND animal) whenever I can. I try to see good in everyone. I try to believe that there’s always hope, even in the dark. I am a warrior with a huge heart and I’m losing this battle. Unfortunately the furry ones can’t help me but you can.