Hi, I'm Pam, sole creator of the Minecraft mod Pam's HarvestCraft, and I've been trying hard over the last fourteen years, despite my chronic illnesses, to bring everyone's favorite foods, crops, and fruit trees to the game.

I'm now asking the Minecraft community for help to avoid becoming homeless while I recover this year from going into Bipolar mania and then months of new medicine induced depression and panic. I've been left with noticeable cognitive difficulty, brain fog, and memory loss.

In late May of this year I went into severe delusional mania while house sitting, was sent to an in-patient facility for two weeks with no notice to my other clients, came home still manic and updated all of my fruit tree textures, and then dropped into Bipolar depression suddenly from new medication which stopped my mania but had the unintended consequence of months of depression (as of my last update).

Over the next month I couldn't get out of bed, socialize, or do anything; I dealt with constant state of panic over everything. It was after I tried to find a weapon to injure myself, I was sent to the in-patient facility again for over a week.

Not only have I not been able to pull myself out of this depression and constant state of never ending panic, I have realized I have suffered memory loss from the extreme stress, and I have very noticeable cognitive problems and horrible brain fog making simple tasks very hard. Doing something like typing this up has taken all day instead of just ten minutes. My speech is stilted and slow, my short term memory is faulty, I can't think through complex things without getting mentally exhausted, and I even have issue with simple tasks like cooking or driving. I have been very easily overwhelmed and confused.

I am asking for help with rent, bills, medication, and the cost of living over the next year , so I have the financial stability to focus on therapy and doctors to help recover and hopefully start re-learning my skills and try to get back to work.

I refuse to accept that I will be like this forever, and I just need help becoming myself again.

I want nothing more than to continue working on Pam's HarvestCraft for the community!

People have asked for my Patreon for more info: Pam HarvestCraft's Patreon