Hi, I'm Kari.

When I was 14 years old, I was diagnosed with Juvenile Myoclonic Epilepsy (also known as tremors) and Absence Epilepsy (I call these black outs). At that point, I hadn't had an actual full blown seizure.

Since then, I've had many ups and downs with my epilepsy. I have gone through a lot. I've had 4 concussions from seizures and MANY injuries. I can't even say how many seizures that I've had in my life. But I do know that I wouldn't wish this life on anyone.

My greatest accomplishment was when I was able to keep my epilepsy under control so that I could FINALLY get my driver's license and I bought my first car! I was 23. I was so happy! Since then, I've started having seizures more often than I've ever had them. I am not able to get them under control no matter what I do or how hard I try. I lost the ability to drive, work, swim, cook meals alone, walk my dog in the mornings and I can't even take a bath without supervision.

I also suffer from severe clinical depression which I am also taking medication for. It's just hard to watch someone you love work his ass off to support you and not be able to help in any way. I am currently waiting to (hopefully) be approved for disability. I have been trying for over 4 years. If I didn't have Steven and Stella (our fur baby), I don't think that I'd be able to survive. I just want to be able to help in some way.

They do have a device that can be implanted into the skull that detects seizures before they occur, and they send electrical pulses to stop it. I've done tons of research on this and the device itself is $10,000. That isn't counting the surgery, the recovery and hospital stay. The cheapest that I've seen it all cost together was $48,000. I wish that they would do this to help epileptics that can't control their seizures with medication.

I've been on multiple medications for 17 years for my epilepsy and my epilepsy has only gotten worse. Since February of this year, I've been having the worst seizures I have ever had. Multiple days a month, I have 3-4 seizures in ONE DAY! I have lost memories, I have had seizures and not been able to remember ANYTHING for HOURS, It's terrifying. Even now, I'm struggling to remember things, even words. It's the worst thing I've ever experienced.

A life without epilepsy is all I have ever wanted. I would do anything to live a life where I don't have to worry about seizures. It's scary, it hurts, it's hard for loved ones to have to witness it, and even strangers. I hate feeling like a burden, even knowing I'm not. I'm reminded by all of my loved ones that they would do anything to help me no matter what and that I'm not a burden, but it's hard knowing that they do so much for you and you can't do anything in return. I just want to experience a normal life. Hopefully one day I will be able to. Let's keep the faith and keep our fingers crossed.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. If you do donate, Thank you for the donation. Every penny helps. I love you all and I am so very grateful for you! You guys have no idea how much I appreciate you taking the time to read this. If anything, maybe it helps you to understand me a little more. I do try to stay positive, so any words of encouragement are definitely appreciated. Again, Thank you. I love you. Be safe, Always.

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