Health fund for Karen Brandt

I am a Hemiplegic Migraine Survivor, what does that mean? Every day since 2012 I survive (thanks be to God!) a migraine that hasn't stoped since April this year, muscle spasms, weakness, partial paralysis, loss of speech, inability to spell and write, convultions, seizures, I lose consciousness, I vomitt, dry heave, my memory is a mess, some days I can't walk, or shower, or feed myself...

EMDR Therapy, for trauma, like ptsd, has been a gift from God, through Him and an amazing women of God, I am learning that I am a survivor of much more than I ever thought possible...I have been molested, raped, beated and left for dead, I've been choked, called names I am ashamed to say, I've been lied to and deceived by many who should have and actually promised to love me, I have been hated, and somehow it all caused me to hate me the most. I don't tell you this so that you will be sad with me, or feel pitty, I don't want to guilt you into giving me anything, I just want to be real, to share where I have been and where I am at, mostly I want to tell you all with full faith, my God can and will save me, I believe He is using all this filth for my good...because he promises to, and he has never lied yet!

I lose hope, and find it again, I hate myself, then everyone else, then me again for being a jerk... I try to love my family and the people I meet with His love, I fail, a lot, but sometimes, it comes through and that is cool. 

I'm a mom, a wife, a daughter, a sister, a friend, a life group leader, and a cheerer on of my people. I had a job, I did it well... at one time...at least I used to be those things...

Today, Honestly I am just a survivor, and a child of God, who is held by Him and by His grace... that is enough!

Thank you for reading, praying giving, sharing and anything else God leads you to...I believe God is using it all the saving of me, just one long day at a time!