Just trying to keep a roof over my head for me & my dog

I feel very embarrassed & ashamed for having to resort to going down this route, but I’ve been hit with a string of misfortunate unforeseen circumstances that it’s brought me to this point.

As some of you know, both of my parents passed away suddenly recently and I was left to carry the brunt of it… because neither had their affairs properly in order. Prior to that, I had my sh!t together, but then this all happened. My dad died, everything got jacked up (I lost $300,000 on the “PA Recovery Act… my entire inheritance from the selling of his house). I was still treading water though. And then my mom got sick… Really sick to where I had to quit my job to make sure she was okay because I wasn’t putting her in a home. As such, I started selling off my valuables to manage to stay afloat. Then my mom suddenly died and I was left all alone… I took care of her for 25 years (ever since she got sick I promised I’d never leave her) & all of a sudden, she was gone. I lost my best friend …

I made it work for awhile… for like a little over a year after that though… managing my mortgage & all the bills, but eventually I noticed my “treading water” was actually me sinking further & further into debt because I got massively sick for like 3 months (which costed me my job). My house isn’t expensive, I just somehow ended up getting behind… & with no money coming in, I went from “treading water” to “sinking without a paddle”

I’m embarrassed to say it because I used to have my stuff together, but now I’m on the verge of going out there to shake a cup just to try to not be foreclosed on. I’m like 4 months behind on everything (mortgage, gas & electric bills) & I’m living off of rice & dog food (no joke)… my refrigerator is even busted… freezer works… fridge don’t. I got 40 bucks in the bank & that’s about it…

So anyway, I’m just trying to stay afloat until I can find a job & get back on track before I end up getting myself so far into a hole that I can’t crawl my way out of. I’ve been searching for a job, but it’s not working out too well because it seems like everyone’s hiring, but nobody’s actually hiring. I just don’t want to lose my house…