Hi everyone ❤️ On behalf of my brother Peter’s family, I want to thank-you for the overflow of love and support. Without you we wouldn’t be able to think about arrangements, let alone make them.
As you know this is a horrible time of year to be last minute traveling and planning for a funeral service. For those of you that are interested, I know that the service will be on Saturday, January 6th in Pensacola, Florida. Kelly’s brother, Judd, will be posting something with the details very soon.
Most of you know by now that Peter took his own life on 12/20/2017, his 43rd birthday. Whatever emotion that makes you feel - trust me - we are feeling it too. We all agree that Peter had everything and was truly in the best place we’d ever seen him. We were together on a family trip to Michigan for Thanksgiving and really had the best time. Both my Mom and I agree that Peter never looked better or seemed happier.
I had a close relationship with my brother and I can tell you that his wife Kelly and my 2 nephews, Kaden and Kenin, were the best things to ever happen to him. Peter had a coffee shop business that was growing, a beautiful home, and he was active in his church.
Peter was a beautiful spirit. He was humble, funny, and kind. He would give you the shirt off of his back and loved to help others long before he would think of helping himself.
Although my brother battled lifelong issues with addiction, at the time of his death he had finally achieved long term sobriety and never took that for granted.
Pete also suffered from depression which he and I talked about daily.
One of Peter’s demons was his deteriorating health due to his Type One ( juvenile) diabetes. He was insulin dependent from age 11. Simple medical issues haunted him on a daily basis, but like everything else he didn’t want to let us know or to be a victim. Unless you saw him in shorts, you didn’t even know that he was an amputee.
Peter had a wonderful loving and supportive family as well as an amazing therapist. We take depression seriously and Peter especially, knew all too well the impact that the scenario yesterday would have.
After losing our dad to suicide 25 years ago we made a pact never to do that to each other or anybody else - especially if we had kids one day. I spoke to my brother everyday and yesterday was no exception. He was in good spirits, looking forward to a Hibachi birthday dinner with Kelly. He was a proud dad for just putting together the motorized car that my Mom got Kaden for his birthday. Kelly, my Mom, and I were all available to Peter yesterday. When he sent each of us a text telling us he loved us and that he was "sorry," we thought he was just being his silly, random self. What’s he apologizing for?
Why he did not honor our deal yesterday is where my clarity ends, but I have to focus now on who my brother left behind.
My brother and his wife would never ask for anything so I had to tell Kelly not to fight me on this. If anybody wants to help, I have set up this account for my nephews Kaden ( who’s 5th Birthday was 2 days before my brother’s) and Kenin, who is 18 months.
Anything I can do to help them I will. We are a close family and we are going to get through this. The only thing that separates us is distance. If you can help them in any amount please do. And if not, your prayers alone continue to give us strength. Please keep them coming!
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