My name is Daisy, and I have wanted this since I was a child, to feel whole. I would dream as early as 6 about a magic soap in the shower that would just fix my body and make it the way I felt it should. I’ve been extremely feminine my whole life, and there’s a high possibility I was born intersex. I am still looking into it, but all signs point to it. Whether I am or not, it’s felt like a fight to right how wrong my body felt my whole life.

I was stamped down under the cultish version of Christianity my dad’s family worshipped. Put through conversion therapy, beaten for being autistic and showing feminine traits. They did their best to “fix” me, but what they forced on me was already what was truly breaking me. I joined the navy to run away from home, and for five years did my best to blend into a toxic submarine culture that hates women. I never could, and didn't get along with my shipmates. I got hurt during a big fall on the sub due to a wave when Hurricane Sandy came around and was medically discharged.

My family came and took me home saying “I told you so” and “You should've just stayed and obeyed us” and such things, making me their servant like I'd been my whole life once again. I had given up, once again planning to end everything thinking I'd never get to be the woman I was supposed to be, to be myself since I AM a woman. When a friend I met online told me about HRT. My mind was blown away, I had never heard of it in 30 years of life due to the way I was raised. I made plans and ran away to the city I live in, to give it a shot.

I made it here at 31 and now one year later on HRT I'm finally feeling incredibly happy and myself, I met the love of my life. A beautiful woman who I am engaged to and who loves and accepts me, and is poly. I have my fiancee and a gf now. I now want to take the next step, something I both want and need so badly. Honestly the step I feel I need the most to feel complete and whole. Bottom surgery. I still wake up sobbing, wanting to feel whole. I know that the surgeries haven't been perfected by any means, but I can’t wait any longer. I can’t stand what I have below, and though my partners love me for me, I just can’t love me yet. Not fully, the dysphoria is just so powerful at times. As a disabled veteran that can’t work, I cant afford these things on my own, and the VA refuses to help cover the surgery, but will cover any additional emergency surgeries needed in the case it goes wrong and any aftercare steps. Please help me take this next and incredibly important step in my journey. I really can't make it without the love and support from you all. I’m continuing my journey, and growing everyday, physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

I am planning to move to new york, and get onto health insurance there that can then give me a quote on the price ill need to pay for surgeries. In the meantime all of the funds have gone into a savings account to build up to paying for the surgery.

Any needed care or additional surgeries in case anything goes wrong ill do my best to figure out if that comes. Its already my greatest dream to get the surgery, if i dont make it through it, ill go out of this world happy to finally feel like me in my body.

Update: I can’t believe all the love and support pouring out. Thank you all so much. Up to 268$ now, and im overjoyed. Every bit of it goes directly into a savings account to save for the surgery. I feel like theres a real chance for me. Thank you so much.