Moving funds

Hello! My name is Carissa, I am a Starbucks barista and an artist from PA.

Roughly a week ago, my mother threatened to kick me out bc she found out I was going to a BLM Protest. She berated me and started screaming at me the moment I walked down the stairs.  Unfortunately, this is a common occurrence in my house.  I was raised in a Christian household growing up and a lot of trauma stems from that.  My family is homophobic, transphobic, racist, and has a lot of toxic tendencies. My mother is especially hard to deal with since she is laid off work because of Covid-19.

I feel like I have to walk on eggshells all the time whenever she's around because I never know what kind of mood she's gonna be in. This is a common occurrence and it is so incredibly draining. She has the mindset of, "this is how I am and this is how I always will be" and acts aggressively towards anyone who challenges that. She gaslights us constantly and plays the victim card whenever we defend ourselves. When I came out almost two years ago, she also threatened to kick me out and smash my laptop and all my possessions. She ignored me for two days straight afterward and then pretended nothing happened and things went back to normal. She told me she loved me but didn't apologize. She never apologizes when she hurts someone and it's a vicious environment to be in.

I have GAD, OCD, SPD, and chronic migraines, (all professionally diagnosed and I take medication) so the environment I live in is horrible for my mental and physical health. The stress I deal with day-in and day-out wears me down and I just want to live in a healthy environment with my sister and my brother-in-law where I can grow and flourish.

I've been looking at apartments and houses like crazy but it's been so hard with the pandemic. Every house I would look at would get sold or I got denied because the mortgages were too high. By some miracle, a dream apartment opened up and we got accepted. It still doesn't feel real; I feel like I'm gonna wake up and it'll all just be a dream, but it's truly real.

That being said we want to move in as soon as possible and get settled in. (Before July preferably) There are 3 of us total - me, my sister, and her husband, as mentioned. My mother has put us down and told us that we won't make it, and we'll fail, but we will prove her wrong.

Your support and donations will go towards moving expenses and groceries for us. Every little bit helps and it means the world to me. You're making a difference for us and I cannot thank you enough. <3 Even if you can't donate, sharing this around will help.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart,

Carissa

Attached are some of the occurrences of my mother's toxicity. I also have a video of my mother screaming at us if you need proof of that .