I told myself I was not going to go this route again; however circumstances have led me here.

I did not get SSDI (disability). Furthermore, I am appealing the decision and working with a company that a friend of mine used for his appeal.

All of my creditors are working with me. I can not work with car insurance, phone and wifi. Although I need a car payment they to are helping.

A friend of mine from church keeps telling me I have to let others bless me. You know me, you know I am a loner. It is hard to let people bless me because you all have been awesome over the years I say I have to ask again. Does not make me feel good. Its like less than a "man". I want to work! I want to pay my own way! I want to be able to "bless" or help you guys and the occasional stranger.

Not only that, but I wonder how much pride I have to swallow. Deciding to apply for SSDI was heartbreaking to me. Even now I am hurt asking for help again.

I do have a part-time 24-hour job in the works. I am just waiting for the rooms to be filled before I can start. It is working as a front desk person at a new building for the homeless. Families. Any way thanks.