Life is unfair 2019 was like a ride on a roller coaster for me. 2020 caused a lot of pain and damage to the entire world. And here in 2021, most people are just starting to get back to normal lives. Unfortunately for my family, normal lives no longer exist for us. Prayers are our only hope. And things aren't looking so good.. 

I am a mother of 6, family of 8. I have 3 daughters; 1 is my step-daughter whom I have loved as my own since Day 1,  nd 3 sons.  February 2019 is when it all began. While my grandmother was extremely sick, taking her last breathes, we learned our 11 year old son Justice Howard has Grade 3 Anaplastic Astrocytoma (brain cancer.) This came out of no where as Justice has always been healthy, despite ADHD.  Justice started having minor sick symptoms (throwing up once a day) like you would with a virus and I really thought it was stress of his rock (my grandmother) being sick. Instead I learned, "Justice has a massive tumor and needs to be rushed to John Hopkins Hospital Children Center." Once there surgery had to be done to determine what this tumor was and what treatment would be required. Doctors said he would need to do chemotherapy and radiation. And I couldn’t honestly tell you how scary hearing all of that felt. But I stayed strong for my son and I made sure to always walk away before he seen any emotions from me as I worried my emotions would make him lose hope. I told Justice going into surgery, "you’ll be okay son I promise," with no clue what the result will actually be when that was over. It was that moment he became MY HERO and he came out so strong. My children are the only thing in this world that matter to me. While my other 2 boys are already suffer other illnesses too I knew this would be a long journey. Further investigation into Justice cancer, doctors say unfortunately he is stuck with this but there were some treatment options and experimental trials that could be beneficial.  It’s been a long road so far and he seems to be getting tired of the fight but he is still going. I wish he didn’t have those bad days that make him feel like giving up. I wish he had the normal life of an 11 yr old. Justice completed chemotherapy and radiation 5 days a week for 6 weeks. Lost his hair while eating dinner in clumps. But, things were going very well for the first year or so after that. Recent scans show growth and progression. Again, there were very few options for treatment. However, as a parent I felt willing to try whatever could potentially make him better. We agreed on a new recently introduced study, which was an infusion he would get every 2 weeks to just offer him a good quality of life. We also learned from the recent biopsy that a new mutation was found and there was a medicine used for that specific mutation in adults with a different cancer but the doctors thought this could be an option for Justice also, with the infusions. At this time doctors stated I have about 6-9 months with him in his condition. Here, its been a few weeks and the drug for the mutation has been denied 4 times, and he has had one infusion. By the time we returned for the second infusion, 2 weeks later, Justice had really declined everyday, since the first infusion. Last week, instead of Justice receiving this infusion, all of the doctors in his team agreed that NOTHING was going to work for Justice any longer and if our plan was for him to be home and comfortable that is where they would recommend he be. This means whatever meds we are giving at home, whatever we are already doing at home and whatever hospice and peds home nurses were doing, is all we would continue. The doctors at this time said, "Based off Justice condition-vegetative state, we have just a few short weeks with him and they want to start him on steroids to allow him just a little umph while we try to enjoy these few weeks with him." Definitely not what I wanted to hear or come home and share with our family, my family and everyone else who loves him. Now, not only are we spending every second of everyday by Justice side, making memories, but we are trying to plan for his arrangements. I do not have any life insurance on Justice and because I am unemployed, caring for him too, I would just like to try to be a step ahead with all of this. We've been quoted at around $7,000.00 for his services. While this is already destroying our family, I cant honestly say I would even be capable of making these arrangements at the very last minute for him. Any parent should understand that. I really dont know how any parent who has ever had to go through there child being deathly sick handled it. I feel like I'm going crazy most times. 

Justice dreamed of being a football player. I had no doubt in my mind, he would’ve. Justice loved telling jokes, smiling, and bringing a smile out of anyone he encountered. Justice wanted to visit a few places; Disney World with his siblings, California, Miama, and Ocean City. Justice loves arcades and adventure. Justice is a wonderful young boy with the best spirits, even now. It’s hard on all of us dealing with his illness, that we all understand how important time with him, making memories is. Cancer really sucks. It’s tearing families apart. We fight so hard with our loved ones to give them the best life but there comes a time where fighting is too hard because it’s heart wrenching to see and things sometimes get out of our control..! 

I’m asking anyone and everyone to please help us by praying, sharing, following Justice Strong on Facebook to stay updated in his journey and donating if you can. Every dollars helps. Every prayer helps. Every share helps. 

Donations:  #justicestrong
GoFundMe: takes (3-5 days) or so
Cashapp:$money1886 (instantly)
Zelle: please ask (instantly)

 **All donations, whether here or another source will be listed on this page. If you don't wish to have your donation shared here please donate anonymously. We want Justice to see the army of people fighting Cancer with him. If there is a message you want to include with your donation feel free to message me that. And I’ll list it. Understand, we are going through ALOT at home with this so it may just take a bit But will get posted. Again, I appreciate everyone from the bottom of my heart for just sharing this and donating if you could. Continue to follow Justice Strong Journey.! On Facebook 

***I’ve also been asked by followers to have him create an Amazon wish list with things he may want so that others can gift them to his home. I’ll consider that also and keep everyone updated.! 

God Bless Everyone!

Son, you left us today August 5th. Everyone had come to visit and spent most of the day beside you. Michelle and Oscar stopped by and then Aunt Angie, Miranda and Tony. Everyone spent time making sure you were comfortable and feeling loved. We all wanted you to feel us and know that we were here with you. Your awesome son and nobody can take that from you. You have a heart as huge as your smile and everyone fell in love with you. Even in the toughest times for you, you still showed up for school, virtual learning, friends or family in need of some good spirits. Your an amazing young man son and I promise nobody will ever forget you for the wonderful person you are. Your definitely the strongest kid I’ve met yet. So thankful your strength came from me. Lol. To be continued……