Fighting So Our Son’s Killer Doesn’t Go Free 71 days! That is how long it has been since we lost our beloved Matthew. It is hard for me to imagine anything more devastating then being told that your child has died, but there is something more devastating. What's worse is our son was murdered by the actions of someone who gave no thought and had no value for our son's life. His life has been taken from him in a brutal act of violence while he was at work. From the moment we discover what happened to Matthew, everything changed. Our hearts break thinking of what Matthew must have endured in his last moments on this earth. The possible split-second realization of what was about to happen before he was taken from this Earth with a fatal shot. When I heard, I was in such a state of shock and disbelief that my mind truly could not comprehend. "What if this was a mistake and it's not really him" "What if this did not really happen" – but the HARD reality is IT DID. Surviving the shocking and sudden death of our son in this way feels impossible. So as bereaved parents, we now have to adjust to a life without our son. There is no manual on how to maneuver through this nightmare and we are trying to find our own methods of adapting, living with what cannot be changed, and working through the pain and grief so that for his sisters, some remnants of a life can continue (albeit in a different way from how we wish). We can only make this heartwrenching ‘journey’ at our own pace and sometimes the pace feels like it's actually moving backwards rather than forwards. For me personally it is extremely difficult to resume normal activities. Life seems meaningless and empty, things that brought pleasure before are now without enjoyment and even laughter brings immediate and intense feelings of guilt. The traumatic circumstances of our son’s death has inevitably created unbearable and uncontrollable waves of emotion. As shock and numbness wear off slowly, I sometimes wonder how is it even possible to survive this loss. What kind of life could we possibly have never seeing his beautiful face again, hearing his beautiful laugh again nor ever hugging and squeezing him tight in our arms again?  We have yet to get Justice although the police know who killed him. The Pasadena police department has a signed confession from the suspect that he shot our son, they have a statement from the witness confirming the suspect shot our son and they have the suspect's fingerprints on the gun, bullets and shell casing in addition to a coroner report confirming homicide as our sons cause of death yet the police department has stated that there is not enough evidence to pursue murder charges. It's been 71 days since our son had been murdered  by someone he knew and worked with. He’d stood no chance. He’d died from a direct and fatal gunshot wound to the Head. The damage was so bad that we were told by the corner that they had to wait for the FBI fingerprinting to come back to positively identify our son. We were also told by both the corner and the funeral home that there could not be an open casket and that they recommended that we did not burn such a horrific memory into our minds by attempting to see our son's remains before his cremation. We couldn't even say goodbye to him. And now I was being told that no one was responsible for his death? The killer had not been arrested, even though he’d admitted to taking his life! As I write, I still don’t understand. But what I do know, now that I’ve had time to pick myself back up, is that we will fight for our son. We will do so, again, and again, and again even if no one else stands with us. We will fight for him even if Pasadena, Harris County or the state of Texas doesn't do it. To be told that no one is responsible for his death is an insult to us, his family, and to his memory. The message such a decision sends out to the world is that the law in Texas and specifically Pasadena, Harris County doesn’t hold killers responsible if they claim that it was an accident. They should have to tell me to my face that the man who brutally killed our child was not responsible for his actions and ultimately not guilty of murder.  Erosion of faith in the legal system is dangerous. Free democracies must have a just and fair rule of law, a robust, well-funded system that works both for the defendant and the victims because all parties are entitled to a fair trial. It will never be perfect but it has to work. As citizens, it’s our right to ask whether our justice system and laws are fit for purpose. Because of all of this we have chose to hire a victims advocacy attorney. As everyone knows hiring an attorney is not cheap and sometimes Justice is not served merely because of lack of funds. I know that so many people don't have a lot to give and everybody has problems of their own but I am begging that if you are reading this that God touches your heart to give something even if it is only $5. That is $5 more to fight to get Justice for Matthew.  Help us show this criminal that we will not stand and let him commit murder and get away with it. In addition, I ask that those of you reading this to pray for us. Pray for justice for Matthew because without Justice we cannot have peace. Pray for God's strength as we walk this path together yet individually. And pray for understanding for those around us as sometimes people do not understand the pain of losing a child so tragically. I thank each and every person who is reading this and ultimately in our life right now being a support system even when you feel you are not doing anything but simply donating to this GoFundMe. We may not know each other but you are still part of our support system and we are grateful to God  for the blessing that you are to us.  Even if all you are able to do is share that is one more share we didn't have before. You may not know this but every little bit helps for us to achieve the goal of #JusticeForMatthewCausey