Hi, my name is amber and this is very hard for me to sit and type this out but I want my story heard. It started Feb 6th when I went to the ER for severe abdominal pain at this point my OB dr thought I was either dealing with ectopic pregnancy that ruptured or ovarian torsion. Upon my exam they found a lesion in my right ovary, a ruptured cyst and swollen ovaries and then an incidental finding of a lung nodule that was very concerning for malignancy. Malignancy!!! Now being am RN I quickly knew what that meant and it took the wind right out of me and dread filled my body. I had a follow up with my PCP on the 9th was in with a pulmonary dr by the 13th. My pulmonary dr ordered a Stat PET scan bc my nodule was oblonged and looked like a spider. For us in the healthcare field we know these are all tell tell signs of CANCER. While I waited for my insurance to kick in I was paying for all my visits out of pocket(ouch) and I had pulmonary function test, PET scan and a couple more tests. This wait was the absolute hardest thing I've had to do. It was two weeks of pure agony as all I can think about is leaving my family to fight this world without me in it. It haunted my every waking and sleeping moment. I went days without sleeping, eating and just lived in a constant state of anxiety and worry. The day finally came Mar 1st when I was able to get my PET scan. The scan was done I went grabbed a bite to eat and thought I'd go shopping for a new pair of shoes for work when a message popped up on my phone that I had a new test result. I was sitting in my car and this particular day was a friday and the rain was coming down so hard and fiercely that you could barely see. I was sitting in the parking lot at lebos clicked my results and that's when it all changed. Suddenly I couldn't breathe and then I couldn't see and not bc of the rain but my tears had over taken and my eyes began to weap faster than I could wipe the tears away. My PET scan results said CANCER!!! I was in total shock how could this be I am only 38, with three kids, fiance and a family that loves me. In that moment my life ceased to exist. I think I cried for 12hrs straight and became numb and couldn't move or talk. The hardest battle and what I dreaded most was telling my two oldest kids. I sat the kids down in living room and told them I have lung cancer elsie began to cry and bell looked devastated and confused and kept saying what how when why. All questions I was asking myself. Both my girls still refuse to say the word cancer but they know. Now it doesn't make it any easier but I've had the pleasure of working with great people that have given me time to process and help me navigate. My friends, family and coworkers have supported me thru prayers, encouragement and a shoulder to cry on. I met with my surgeon on Thursday and I am scheduled for surgery March 28th a week from the day I met with my surgeon. I'll be out of work for a good bit and in that time my family will be lacking my financial support. I worry about how my bills are gonna get paid and all the simple things that my family will need. It's hard for me to ask for help but I feel like if there is ever a time now is it. It won't bother me a bit if no one donates to our little family bc thru it all I know God will provide for us. I love you all and please I beg of you not to judge me for seeking help for my family in this time if need.