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Mommas Funeral services
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Hello brothers and sisters of the world. Now it pains me to write this, cause it still feels like a bad dream that I just can't wake up from. And I've never been one to ask for help in anyway. With my pride always getting in the way. But any little help is welcomed and much appreciated.
I didn't realize it cost so much for a funeral or cremation nowadays. So much so that I'm struggling just to figure out how I'm going to pay rent. Especially after paying so many other bills for the moment. I feel like I'm failing, but it's the grief trying to tear me down. But here goes...My Mom is gone. We(sister & I) spent the whole of this past year taking care of her, and now I feel lost, scared and overwhelmed. I don't know what I'm doing.
Cause it happened so suddenly. Without any will or life insurance. We never had that "talk". It's still hard for me to type this through the tears. I found her unresponsive and she literally died in my arms. I can still see it all. A haunting image, I'm so tired. I know I shouldn't blame myself(which I will do if you know me), but I couldn't save her...She was my bestfriend and the reason for my comedic behavior. I should take solace in she's with our Father now. My autistic little sister and I are a wreck. She hasn't really spoken much about the situation. I know everyone grieves in their own way, just hope she talks to someone. It was so sudden, that it still feels unreal.
We have our moments, like when we see her pocketbook or cell phone sitting there and start crying...I regret not taking more pictures with her. Or getting more time with her granddaughter, that she was looking forward to. If you made it this far, thank you for bearing with me. I'm still in shock, I'm running on empty and my brain is all over the place as you can tell from my typing. I didn't say it enough, but Momma we love and miss you...
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